When you're gone CHAPTER 45

Another month,

another year,

another smile,

another tear,

another winter and,

another summer too

and i? will always love you.

I miss you fahad.

The year passed by very quick and today is my 18th birthday




Me: manuur get ready bamerich wya elsayeg in 30 minutes 3shan enru7 B+F

munera: okay bas jazouy lan6awel 3shan yousef said at 10 lazem akuun raj3a elbait

me: ohh wayed mbacher !

munera: shswi I have to ba3ad I'm his wife mara7 yertha atakhar

me: okk



The bell rang


yasmeen: heeeyyyy birthday girl !!!!!!!!!

me: heey

yasmeen: happy birthday ya 7ilwaa enjoy itt !!

me: thankyouu i will cause you're with me ;p

yasmeen: awwh :$ btw hach ur present wila taben a36ech eyaha eb B+F

me: 3a6ene eyaha eb b+F

yasmeen: LOOOL okay!!

me: yalla emshay nru7 nmur manor

yasmeen: yalla

me: yalla 7arek raja

raja: jeein !


yasmeen: uhmm jazi fahad wishes you happy birthday and he says he loves you so much!

me: he does ? *shocked*

yasmeen: just because he broke up with you doesn't mean he can't stop loving you! And yes he does!

me: OMG *tearing* i love him too this actually made my day :') *tearing*

yasmeen hugged me and said: yalla mis7ay dmou3ech

me: okay *tearing* bas isn't there hope for us to get back together?? :')

yasmeen: no i don't think so.

me: ok :(


We arrived at munera's house after like 15 minutes and she came in the car with a huge smile on her face and me and yasmeen were just like what the hell :/

me: shfeech yam wayh?

munera: agulekum eb b+f

me: okaayy!!!!



The road was very crowded and me and the girls were just chatting about collage, university and etc ;c and after like 30 hours of being stuck in the traffic we reached 360!
We got in 360 w bdena nitmasha w 6ab3an munera kanat mndjmja b her phone t7ache 7abeeb galba w rayelha yousef :) ou me and yasmeen kina ga3ad nista3be6 3al ma7alat, even though were 18! Tara being 18 is COOOOOOOOL 
B-)  just saying. Ok don't worry.


We got in b+f and sat on the table ou 6ab3an i asked yasmeen t7ache elrayal eswili surprise birthday w 6ab3an ana bswe ru7e madre :$
We ordered our meals and chatted for a bit and 
then munera wanted to say something


munera: banaat sim3unee !!

me: halla?

munera: i've got some good news :$

me&yasmeen: shnuu?

munera: ana 7amil !!

Mine and yasmeen's face was :O !!!!!!!!!!!

me: OMGGG 7LFAAAAYYY???

munera: walllaahhhh!

yasmeen: OMG AY SHAY :O ?

munera: eeh wallah ana 7amil shfeekum !

me: OMGGGG mabrouuuuuuuuk ilove yoouuu manouuur yetraba b3ezkum enshalllaahh!!

munera: enshallah!

yasmeen: waaaay wnasaa your gonna be a mom soon !!

munera: 7addaa i can't freaking wait bas khayfa !

me: 7beebii manor :( don't worry everything will be alright :***

yasmeen: eeh manoura latkhafeen enshallah hal 9 ashhur ymeruun bser3a

munera: enshalla

me: manor don't you think you're to young for this? i mean your 18 ;p

munera: eeh i am bas everything happened quickly ;p

me: hmm yalla enshallah elwakt your bser3a wtoulden wt9er bnya wtsmeenha 3alay :$

yasmeen: la tsameenha 3alay!!

munera: keep dreaming 7baybe



B+f workers:  BOO!!! HAPPPY BIRTHDAY JAZI !! May all your wishes come true !


MY face went red and i said: thankyoouu guys :$

Yasmeen and munera gave my my presents and after that we ate the chocolate cake then we had to go back and take munera cause she can't be late :l yousef mayertha :) !

We dropped her off at her house then yasmeen 7anat 3alay enruu7 pink berry so we went there and as soon as we arrived, we ordered the frozen yoghurts wila inshuuuf ...





































FAHAD



yasmeen: hey bro

fahad: hey sis ;) , jazi you didn't ask me how i am ;p?

me: how are you?O_O

fahad: tamam

me: doum O_O

fahad: damat ayamich, entay shlunech?

me: not bad O_O

fahad: 3assa ;**


I smiled :D !





yasmen: uhhmm baruu7 el7amaam because I'm desperate and you know ;)

fahad: yeah yeah go go yasuum ;)




I gave her a death stare ena ana a3amech :)






fahad: jazi i miss you!! wel9ara7a ana 7ail ta3ban bedunich...

me: fahad you're the one who wanted us to break up it was all your decision, ou 7asbalik i don't miss you??

fahad: i know you miss me, i know its my fault I'm sorry

me: tara i have feelings too w you're not the only one tired! I am too

fahad: mu beedi entay tadreen!!

me: the only flipping thing i know is that you can't refuse what your dad told you and to be honest i think thats stupid! 9bay sh6oulek sh3erthek mategdar tarfeth ele ygoula lik obouk

fahad: ba3ad obouy jazi shtabeeni asawi !!!! Entay bas t3arefay 3al bint wallah khoush wa7da !

me: I DONT WANT TO MEET THE GIRL YOU'RE GETTING MARRIED TO *tearing* MALI SHEGHEL FEEHA !! YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED TO HER KAIFEK ITS YOUR BUISSNES NOT MINE I DONT CARE ALLAH YWAFGEK !!!!!

fahad: ameein..



Tears started flowing down my face like a river but i managed to wipe them and walk of leaving fahad siting down, but as i was walking i heard fahad shout my name
so i turned around...


me: what do you want ba3ad???? Mu kafe ele sweita feni! *tearing* YOU BROKE MY HEART!

fahad: jazi I'm sorry, forgive me please

me: why should i? *tearing*

fahad: you know i love you, and you know you love me too! PLEASE

me: sama7tek

fahad: I'm so sorry jazi

me: Its ok fahad! I managed to live a year without you, so i can manage living my whole life without you, its not a big deal, yeah its tough but i managed it and i always will

fahad; i promise that i love you no matter what jazi! I really do.

me: And you know i do too :') *tearing*







I am heartbroken, i am sad, i am lonely, but i guess that that's what's meant to happen to me, I guess that if me and fahad were still together something bad might've happened so its better how we are now, i guess that the true meaning of love doesn't exist and what i was in, was a (fake dream) that looked like reality the whole time.
Maybe fahad will have a better life with his new wife soon and maybe i'll just live my life the way it is, but don't forget that i've still got a long way to go and god knows how many unopened secrets and wonders are out there waiting for me, so i'm going to keep living my life with my head up high proud of everything that happened to me because life is like a test for us, and every person that comes into our life teaches  us a lesson.
It does hurt being alone without fahad but always remember nothing stays forever right?

I know fahad still loves me and i know he's still in pain but time will pass and he'll get over me soon, like i did.

I will love him till forever dies, It's a promise.


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When you're gone CHAPTER 44

I woke up the next day feeling tired and broken, yes not even bothered to do anything. I decided to text munera and yasmeen about what happened yesterday and here's how it went...


me: PING!!!

      PING!!!


munera: haaa?

me: fahad broke up with me ams!

munera: omfg ay shaayyy???

me: yup

munera: LAISH !!!?

me: he said he's going to marry this girl obouh ekhtarha for him so he can't reject!

munera: Yes he can actually !!!!

me: shswi ba3ad i guess there's no hope for me

munera: girl you're just going to sit here doing nothing ????

me; yeah i guess so cause theres nothing i can do, he's getting married so yeah ;(

munera: UMBAAAIH you love him so much and you letting it all go like this simple?

me: yeah i do love him, bas he's not mine, he belongs to his new wife which i don't know when he's getting married to ...

munera: you're so stupid

me: 3ad t9adgein he told me to come to go his wedding and to "be there for him" :')

munera: OMG then go there and take your chance! Kalmay elbnaya ele bykh6bha w gulelaha ina you were his gf ou chethi yemkin tkraha ou tarfetha !!!!!! :O

me: no munera! Just no! It won't work so stop dreaming

munera: kaifich stay single your whole life..

me: I'm happy like that!!!!

munera: you're not !

me: bye !


I deleted the chat and looked for yasmeen on my contact list so i pinged her,

me: PING!!!
       PING!!!

yasmeen: weja3 shtabeeen???

me: uhhm yasmeen fahad told you we broke up?

yasmeen: yeah, I'm sorry bas tara he still loves you!

me: you're happy ina he broke up with me ?

yasmeen: I'm not bas ya3ne obuuy legala bint a ba3ad a few weeks byakh6bha ..

me: umm okay. Allah ywafga enshalah

yasmeen: ameen enshallah, I'm sorry jazi

me: its ok i have to go now!


I actually can't believe how cold yasmeen's replies were, she's actually alright with fahad breaking up with me even though I'm her close friend ! I'm sure she's going to start backing away from me one day.  I'm sure.







1 week later




Yousef khe6ab munera and their milcha is next week I'm so happy for munera allah ytamim 3aleiha enshallah!



munera: jazzii umbeeehhh 6afach 6afach elkhe6ba waaayyyy!!! Yousef looked soo hot bel dishdasha w mnazil rasa 6ul elwakt YHABEEEELLLL !!!!! Im so happy

me: looool 3asa duum manor I'm so happy for you too !!!! No matter what happens don't forget me ya kalba zaain!!!

munera: 6ab3aaan !!!!!! Btw wench?

me: belbait bru7e ;pp

munera: your mom and dad weinhm?

me: shdrane 6al3eein ..

munera: 3ayal get dressed ou kishkhay cause bayeech 3shan enru7 elsalihiya

me: whyy?;c minu beyebch?

munera: badawer nafnuuf 7ag elmilcha duuuhhhh!! ou malice shighl ! 1 hour w ana bara ;)

me: ok weirdo




I quickly changed to a maxi dress and my spiked shoes , then i applied some makeup and tied my hair to a neat bun and i went to the living room to wait for munera.


munera PING!!!

me: ha weinch??

munera: yalla 6il3ay bara !

me: k !




I went outside wila alage jassem's black car and no one in it ;s! ya3ne ma3qoula manor yet wiya jassem? OR la la yemkin yet wiya elsayig bas 3ad weinhi ?


.....: TURN AROUND!!!!



I turned around wila alagi jassem and munera :O !!

munera: surprise hahaha ;p

me: uhmmm

jassem: ana asef jazi tekfaain sam7ene!! Ana thalamtech w ghala6t b7agich wallah makan qa9de bas kint khayef 3ala ekhti munera w makint dare shswi ! Makint adrey ina munera ma7thoutha bwa7da methlich! 9ij enich bint nas ou khoush w7da w mtrabya a7san eltarbya, law wa7da thanya chan masawat chethi 7ag ekhti, ana mt7asef 3la kil kilma glt'a ! Sam7eni jazi

me: its okay jassem, a9lan ana mu za3lana 3alaik la2ane adre inik kint khalif 3ala munera!

jassem: la wallah intay za3lana w shayla bgalbich 3alay bas abeich tsam7eeni!

me: jassem I'm not ! Ok  aybe za3alt shway bas everything is ok ya3ne I'm not sad anymore a9lan 6af

jassem: mamshe men meney ila laman tgulein msam7etek

me: okay! msam7etek jassem.

jassem: al7mdla yarab O:) !

munera: cuttteee everything is ok noooowww wohooooooooo!! I'm back with being your bff nowww

me *fake smile*: yeaaahh!! wohoo ;p

munera: yalla jassem wadna salihiya pleaaassee

jassem: yalla rikbaw



The whole ride munera was talking and talking about yousef and how she's excited about their milcha and i was just smiling and nodding, while on the other side i was actually thinking about fahad.


munera: alooooo jazii??

me: umm haa shfech?

munera: entay ele shfeech 6oul elwakt akalmech wintay bas tebtasmein ou t'hzein rasech  !! fe shay eb balich tfakrein feeh??

me: la la sorry bas g3dt atkhayal ur milch a loool *lie*

munera: uhhmm okay elmuhem shnu btalbesein 7ag milcheti?

me: shinu I'm invited ?

munera: 6AB3AAAN YOU AREE! YOU'RE LIKE MY SISTA !

me: ohh okay ;p uhmm madre maybe chethi maxi dress ;p

jassem: eeh ou ana balbis dishdasha :$

me: hahaha

munera: jassem chub latidakal malna khilgik

jassem: zain zain!

me: entay shnu mfakra your dress ekun?

munera: i think lazem maxi :(

me: LOOL 3ayal ben9er nafs elshay , uhmm manouur, al7ein ur 16 shloun chethi btamlechein next week?

munera: bamleich next week bas I'm not gonna live with yousef our parents said lama a9er 17 nswe wedding ba3dain i move in with him ;p

me: ohhh! so bitkamlein derastech right?

munera: of course i am ;p


jassem: yalla nizlaw kamlaw swalfkum dakhel

munera: btyey wyana?

jassem: 6ab3an bayeey 3shan taben ta9refen flousech 3ala ra7tech? la ya3yune manoura ome galat lazem  ashuf se3er elnafnuf 3shan matshtrein ghali .

munera: huff :), emshaay jazouy went mesh wrana

jassem: shayfatne elsayeg malich?

munera: uhmm no

jassem: 3ayal enchubay w ana bamshe yamich

munera: k !



We went in roberto kavali, mui mui, dior, and all these (designer) shops till munera found a lovely grey glittery maxi dress from chloé !




me: allaah ehabel 3alaich manouuurr lazem takhtheena!!

jassem: eeh wallah manor elnafnuuf 7liu w se3ra munaseb!

munera: okaayyy!

me: 3alaich eb 1000 3afya babe!

munera: allah y3afeeich :*

jassem: yalla khala9na wain tabuun tru7un?

munera: elbait cause ta3abt

me: yeah me too

munera: jazouy muta bteshteren nafnuf 7ag elmilcha??

me: madre bas soon ;p

munera: okay ;p


jassem: yalla wi9alna

me: bye

jassem&munera: bye


I entered the house finding my mom and dad in the living room, they asked me where i was and i told them everything about munera's milch a next week and they were really happy. I slept that day and woke up the next morning and went shopping with my mom and i brought myself a really nice maxi dress but way differedt than munera and it was very simple but so beautiful.




The week went by very fast and today is munera's milcha!



I got up, went to the saloon with munera and had our nails done, hair and makeup then we went to munera's house and we got dressed there, 6ab3an my mom was there from ages because she was helping manor's mom cause the milch a is in her house
After like 5 hours we were done xd

And its time for the milcha..




munera: jazooooouuuyyy khayfaaa !!!!!!

me: don't worry manuur everything will be alright!!

munera: okay :(

me: yalla lets go down elnas gamaw eyuun!

munera: yalla

munera's mom: common sweetie everybody is waiting for you

munera: okay mom!



Munera was so pretty that night! She was the prettiest out of everyone! I'm so happy for her she's finally going to be yousef's wife!



I whispered: i love you munera :*

munera: i love you too *tearing*

me: umbaih latabchein please 3shan ma2abche too!

munera wiped her tears: okay :(



Then the dj person said that yousef was gonna come in so all the women had to wear their 3abayat and hijabat and there he was , yousef was walking up to munera with a huge smile and all you could see was that munera's face looked as red as the kousha :/
I went over slamt 3la yousef w baraktlah ohwa and munera, then we took pictures and it was time for them to go and thats how the day ended



2 weeks passed w lel7in ma sima3t ay khabar ina fahad tizawaj



I decided to bbm yasmeen..

me: heyyy..

yasmeen: heey

me: how r u?

yasmeen: great u?

me: I'm not bad

yasmeen: so?

me: uhmm how's fahad ?;p

yasmeen: he's good

me: kha6ab?;p

yasmeen: no :( my dad said that he wants the girl to be 18 ba3dain beyakh6ebha 7ag fahad so thats like ba3ad 1 year and a half..

me: ulaaah all a y9abrek ya fahad :(

yasmeen: amen :(

me: 3ade a3aref minu elbint?

yasmeen: no sorry cause dad magaley minu ehya bas gal 7ag fahud w fahuud el7mar mu rather ygule :(

me: maskeena :(

me: eeehh :(










1 year passed and now I'm in collage now and i have one more year to go till i graduate 





I'm 17 now and i'm actually fine with my life, i think I'm alright without fahad even though i miss him so much and whenever i speak to yasmeen i ask her about him.
Munera goes to kuwait university and she had her wedding with yousef last month and now their living in a cute apartment in surra. 

And though for me? I'm still waiting for a special guy to be my husband maybe someday i'll find the right one.

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When you're gone CHAPTER 43

I woke up the next day feeling so energetic and happy ! Its just so crazy how this year went by so quick  i'm so excited but also scared of what the future holds..



I got out of my bed, went to the toilet and had a shower, brushed my teeth and did everything!
Then i went downstairs and ate breakfast with my parents, after that i rushed upstairs and started straightening my hair which was taking me ages so i decided to call my maid to do it instead ..


me shouting: ROSE COME AND DO MY HAIR !!!!!!!

rose came in running: what what??

me: do my hair pleaaasse my hands hurt me i can't do it anymore !

rose: okaayyy!!


She did my hair and after like an hour of sitting still and not moving she finished straightening my hair!

me: finally!!



I cried for about half an hour to find an outfit bas ashwa my mom helped me so i chose to wear this..

I wore a white vest under so my back wouldn't show 

and i wore these shoes..

I applied a simple layer of eye liner, mascara, some blusher and applied some red lipstick.



me: mama , dad I'm ready!!!

dad: yah yah shhal kashkha!

mom: smile 3alaich ya bnayte 9ayra gumar :*

me: tislemuun <3

mom&dad: allah ysalmich


We got in the car and whole ride i was just chatting with fahad on bbm!


me: fahaadd!!

fahad: halla babe??

me: I'm omw to the graduation 7ade scared and nervous!

fahad: baby its going to be ok don't worry :*

me: I'm so happy bas madre i just have this weird feeling i just can't describe it :(

fahad: 3adee jazouya its going to be amazing trust me i experienced it don't forget ;p

me: how did you feel  laman you were standing belstage tan6er elshahada??

fahad: kint mitwater shway bas as soon as elmudeer 3a6ane elshahada 7asait b shu3uur khayal! 9ara7a 7aseeit I'm free !

me: allah wnasa :(

fahad: don't be afraid you will enjoy every moment you spend in the graduation :*

me: inshalla i hope! btw fahad your coming to the graduation cause of your sister yasmeen right?

fahad: yup I'm omw to the hotel yasmeen and my parents 9bigounii

me: ohh okay take care please!

fahad: enshallah :**

me: byee x

fahad: bye





And after a blink of an eye i found my self standing right outside the movenpick hotel!


dad: yalla nizlay jazi

me: okay sorry mantebaht! I was day dreaming ;p

mom: yalla yuma 3shan matit2akhirain!

me: ok



We got in the hotel and then we asked the man where was the graduation and it was in the king lounge so we walked till we got in!
And thats when i saw every pupil from my school sitting and chatting! Smiling and laughing! The place looks exciting and i started feeling so happy !


yasmeen: omgg heeyyyy !!

me: heeyyy!

yasmeen: You look gorgeous ya kalba !!!

me: awwh :$! you too wallahh!! :*

yasmeen: 7beebti :*! btw shlounech??

me: tamam wallah ;p

yasmeen: duum!

me: damat ayamech


Then my mom interrupted us,

mom: yuma ana wbouch benrou7 neg3ad ok?

me: eeh okay mama!


Me and yasmeen went and sat in our seats! I had to go and sit where my class was and yasmeen had to sit where her class was! And i felt like every moment was going slow till they said my class's name! And now its time for us to receive our certificates !




Everyone got up to get their certificate, person by person would stand up till it was my turn.
They called out my name..


teacher: JAZI AL*****


Thats when everyone started clapping! The noise echoed everywhere and all i knew was that every step i was taking closer to where the teachers was standing was making me shake, i felt so dizzy but i quickly managed to get there and my head teacher salam 3ley and gave me my certificate and i took a picture with him and thats when i saw my mom crying her eyes out and my dad videoing me! And fahad? he was smiling the whole time.<3

teacher: would you like to say anything jazi?

me: umm yes. I just want to say a big thank you for all the teachers and for their help all these years and also i would like to thank my parents for supporting me through all this journey and for being there for me whenever i needed them and that I'm very proud of being part of that school, and thank you.


Everyone clapped and both my mom and dad stood up for me and so did all my friends specially manur<3 

I went back to my seat and suddenly

munera whispered: you were amazing up there i love you<3

me: thanks manor i adore you wallah<33 uhmm btw jassoum ukhuch ga3ed ekhzne!!

munera: oh okay 3yal stop talking to me sway ru7ech m3a9ba 3ley zein!

me: ok


Every one got their certificates and the teachers and the students said all their speeches then it was food time..

My phone vibrated so i quickly checked it..

fahad: PING!!!

me: halla fahad??

fahad: come outside abi akalmech!!

Thats creepy...

me: ok.




I told my parents i was going to the toilet *lie* then i went to see fahad outside!
I started walking till i saw fahad..


me: hey fahad?

fahad: halla jazi

me: so shnu tabey ;p??

fahad: tadrein you were shining on that stage?

me: a7em :$

fahad: your so beautiful :* just like every time bas elyoum 9ayra very very beautiful !!!

me: thanks fahad you do too ;p

fahad: your welcome! ha shloun shu3urech now?

me: 7adeey 7adeey happy !!!!

fahad: enshallah doom :*

me: damat ayamek! x

fahad: so now your graduated magelteli which university betru7ein?

me: madre wallah wedi adres bara!!

fahad: wish you luck!

me: thanks!! uhmm fahad is anything wrong??

fahad: yes !!! fe shay lazim agoula!!

me: shinu shfek fahad?? tell me whats wrong baby ?

fahad: jazi i ..































fahad: i don't think we can continue in our relationship I'm sorry bas my dad ligale bnaya w i have to marry her because she's very close to my family I'm sorry...

me: WHATTTT?????????? YOUR FLIPPING JOKING RIGHT????? AY SHAY 9A7!!!?

fahad: no I'm not joking sorry jazi !

me: you can say no its easy !!!!!!!! Don't you love me???

fahad: i can't reject my dad.. i do love you jazi bas I'm sorry lazim a6ei3 obouy !!!

me: i hate you for making me love you all this time! It turned out you are like all the other boys. A player! and i? i was just a toy to you !!! Thanks so much for being such an amazing person in my life fahad !!!!!!!!!!!!


fahad: I'm sorry jazi wallah i love you! I would appreciate it if you're there for me ..

me: you break my heart and you expect me to come to see you getting married to another girl and seeing her calling you Her's?? Im sorry but thats impossible

fahad: it would be great if you did come! Im sorry but i have to go now, bye.




This can't be happening right??? all my dreams shattered in pieces when fahad told me he's getting married to another girl! I can't believe after all that time fahad isn't marrying me! This is just nonsense i just can't  take it anymore! I f*cking trust too much! I trusted fahad and now he broke me! Im sick of all of this! I've loved fahad with all my heart! Everyday i would love him even more, every moment i speak with him i smile! The future chats that me and him talked about all shattered when he said he's not mine anymore! But its fine ! Its alright, its ok ! I'll be so much better without him. Maybe someday.


I wiped my tears away and went inside to the lounge where everyone was, i sat eating silently till my parents said we had to go and all the way my parents were talking about the graduation and i was silent, just thinking about fahad.

And as soon as we arrived to my house i ran upstairs, locked my self in the room, changed to my pi's and played the song Its alright, its ok by ashley tisdale! I know its old But i always thought this strong was strong and now? it just describes how i feel.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wJWA4nqi650


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When you're gone CHAPTER 42

I woke up the next morning and went to have a refreshing shower then i got out, dried my hair and changed! While i was doing that, 6ara 3ala baley this boy on ask.. so i logged into my ask and found another new question, it said:...


" you are welcome and you know who i am baby :* "

I replied with: uhmm actually i don't know you ! so just tell me who you are! :)


Then i logged off my ask and went downstairs to eat breakfast!


dad: hala bnaytii shlunech?

me: al7mdla I'm fine Yuba, enta shlunk?

dad: walla al7mdla

me: wain mama?

dad: ga3da tswe elreyug wya elkhadama, laish matru7ein tsa3denha wt9eren mara ?

me: ekhh okay -.-

dad: 3afya 3ala bnayte


I helped my mom do the breakfast and it was very delicious tislam edii *_*



The weekend went by very fast like a turtle riding a ferrari 3ala goulat all the kuwaitis o.o!! LOL xp



Today is monday and mashallah the year is going very fast! Its may now ya3ne ma buga shay wn3a6el ! Only 1 month taqreeban!





And through all that time i still don't know who this anonymous boy on ask is! Till one day la3at chabde so i decided to call fahad and tell him this anonymous boy mu rathe yfech and thats how it went..:


RING

RING

RING

fahad: alo?

me: hey!

fahad: halla baby shfech ?

me: fahad! I'm sick of this boy bel ask! He's so annoying w lazga ! MU rathe yfech 3aney w kil ma a6la3 mukan, arja3 albeit afech my ask alage ina this boy sa2elni wgayel ena shafne  eb nafs elmukan! Its like he's flipping stalking me jad khayfa w lama agoulek 3ana you don't care chne mu hametik!!

fahad: jazi baby calm down !! I have something to say...

me: what?
































fahad: This boy on ask is uhhm

me: IS WHO !!!!!!!!!!!!!

fahad: the boy on ask is me!

me: whaatt ??

fahad: eeh its me asking you all this time bas kint bashuf if you were going to tell me or not ;p

me: I HATE YOUU! jad sakheeif w maleeiq we3 we3 !!!!

fahad: I'm sorry jazi :( forgive me please ?

me: no !

fahad: yalla *dalouu3 voice* xp

me: zain i forgive you  *angry voice*

fahad: I LOVE YOU WALLAH !!

me: me too ;p yalla bye have to go now !xp



OMG THIS MONTH IS MAY!!! ITS MY MONTHH
AND TOMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY!!! Everyone was sending me " tonight mentions" and everyone was putting tonight on their bbm status and when it was 12 o'clock? everyone sent me birthday mentions and broadcasts .. later the bell rang and i found a cake with lots of present sayingg happy birthday ! and It was from munera <3 awwhhh
Im so going to thanks her tomorrow at school!


me: thanks manouuuurrrrrrrr for everything!!!

munera: no need i love yoooou walllahhhh!!!! You deserve more!

My friends did a little party for me at school and we had junk food and everyone brought me presents! It was such a nice day!





May passed by very very very fast and this week is the last week of school and i have all my finals, Im so scared bas i will try my best to get the best grades! 



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This is my future coming towards me, and i have to be ready! ready for everything no matter what.

I revised everyday and every hour! Till i would sleep on my bed with the books open and i'd rush the next morning going to school and to do my exams!

Today is the last day of school and i just finished my exam when The bell rang! and thats when everyone and i mean EVERYONE shouted SUMMER HOLIDAYS!! I was so happy like yaaaayyy it feels like nay yesterday i started school! Time goes back so quick AHHH! 

NO MORE SCHOOL ! IM NO LONGER A HIGH SCHOOL"ER" YAAAAAYYYYYY

I called munera: MANOUUUUUURRR i love yooouuuhhhhh OMG I CANT BELEIVE WE FINISHED SCHOOL AHHHHHHHHHHHH  *SCREAM*<3

munrera screamed and said: AHHHHH i knoooww I'm so freaking happy mu m9adga no more school way wayyy aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh that means 3ugb our graduation party yousef bykh6bne and everything will be normal waayyy *SCREAM*

me: ahhhhhhhh way waaayyyy i can't wait till the graduation party bacher !!!

munera: eehh saammee!! ohh jassoum is coming ttyl !xx

me: bye!

She ended the call, then i decided to call yasmeen..

Ring

ring

ring

yasmeen: hallaahhh bel7lwaa jazouuyyyaaaa

me: 7ade mistansa !!!!!

yasmeen: me too !!!!

me: mistansa 3la shnu entay -.-?

yasmeen: mistansa ina we finished school!!!

me: ehh me too!!! zain wain bte6le3ein today??

yasmeen: fahuuud said ena be6al3ne cinema ba3dein ruby tuesday elba7ar!

me: lucky :(

yasmeen: yoou shbtswein?

me: uhhmm ma3endi shay :( ! mom and dad 6al3ein so I'm home alone LOL a7em a7em!

yasmeen: ta3alay with me and fahad !!

me: la its alright :p you need to hang around as a sis and a bro you know like a special time la2ane kilmara a6la3 wiyach entay w fahuud w he gives me all the attention haha !!

yasmeen: eeh 9a7 LOOOL are u sure mataben tiyeen??

me: eehhh I'm sure!! Go and have fun :* ana bazaheb malabse el graduation bacher ;p

yasmeen: ohh okay! thanks jazi i love you <3

me: me too xx

yasmeen: have to go now bbyee ;**

me: byee!!

When you're gone CHAPTER 41

As soon as i finished my food i went to the car  and arrived at school finding all my friends by the gates !



me: OMGGGG GUYSSSS I FREAKING MISS YOUUU

all my friends: US TOOOOOOOO

munera; and were finally going to see each other everyday and go back to our old times :') i think ;p

me: yessssss !!!! I LOVE YOUU MUNEERAAA !!

munera: MORE WALLAHHHHH !!!

me: awwh ;')

munera; 3ad today is our first day fa lazm nbade3 ou we seriously need to have fun okay ;p?

me: 7ada okaaayyy ! ela yasmeeno waynhe ;s?

munera: she said she's on her way with FAHAD 7ABEEB ELGALB!!!

me: OUUUSHHH ya kalba la7ad yesme3ech!!

munera: lazem tgoulele everything!!!!

me: at lunch or break ;p

munera: can't wait urghhghghghghgh

me: calm down babe -.-

munera: chub! ohhh kahii yasmeen

me: halloa bel7uubb !!!

yasmeen: halla b3umrey ;p

munera: wee3 speak normally -.-

me: how's fahad:D??

yasmeen: you ask me how's fahad and you don't ask me how i am?

me: eeh well i like fahad more than you ;p

yasmeen: we3 -.- ela shlounech muneraa :D ????

munera: tamam yasmeen :D!

me: enzain wana mas2ltene shloune?:(

yasmeen: munera ana asta2then barou7 my class a7san 3lql mashuf ba3th elnas!

munera: LOOOL good luck ;p meet us eb our place eb break and lunch ok?

yasmeen: k

me shouting : kalbaa yasmeeen ana a3almech!


She laughed and walked away and so the bell rang so me and all my friends went to the hall for the assembly! The teachers talked about stuff that were very boring then they dismissed us to our classes and there we got our logbooks and our main teacher talked about how the day will go then the bell rang it was break time !! 


me: wakheeiraann!!

munera: eeeh 7ada !!

me: weei3 pictures time after break :')

munera: huufff don't remind me !!! ;s

me: LOOL tara its not that bad -.- i mean common we always take pictures fa its alright ;p

munera: ohh yeaahhh :o

me: loool

yasmeen: heeeyy babes

me: heeyy yasoum

yasmeen: heey

munera: a7m hey!

yasmeen: oh heey ;p! Omg the assembly was so boring ! w my teacher ghayrouh yabaw miss bedala 7adha t'habeel !!! she's american though ;p

munera: mabrouuk

me; mabroouk yasoum wakheeran ftekaitay men Mr hogwards LOOOOLLL

yasmeen: allah yabrek feekm !! eeh 7adaa :')

munera: b3d shway their taking our pictures beldrama studio ;p

yasmeen: ashwa I'm ready ;p sawait my hair straight w76et shway mascara 3shan wyhe maykoun sleepy -.- ;p



The bell rang and then we all went to the drama studio to take our year pictures taken, we took along time then by the time we finished it was lunchtime.


me: Yala yasouum!!

yasmeen: barou7 akil lunch with my friends sorry ;p

me: la 3ade have fun x

yasmeen: thanks u too x

munera: yalla madam yasmeenouh ra7at! abeich tsoulfeli 3an fahad w kil shay 9aar w omg ekhthay ra7tech!!

me: umm shagoul :$

munera: kil shay :o !

I told her everything for A TO Z 

munera: awwhhh cute omgg !!! ya3ne ur together???

me: eeh :$ !!

munera: allah ykhaleekum 7ag ba3ath!!

me: amen! btw sh9ar 3ala yousef like are you guys still together???

munera: eeh were still together ;p

me: shiftaw ba3ath or something??

munera: no since the thing the happened bel chalet i told him ina i can't meet him again, ba3ad i don't know what can happen! so we just bbm each other marat phone calls

me: ohhh ;p


And the day went so fast its home time!!!
I went back home, did all my homework's then i ate dinner and watched t.v a little with my parents and went to bed.





Months past in school




Today is thursday and me and munera are going round to yasmeen's house and then fahad said be6ale3na 360! and luckily jassem (munera's brother) went to his friends chalet so inshallah he won't know munera 6ala3t wiyay ;p




I quickly went to my house had lunch and had a shower, got dressed then got in the car with the driver to yasmeen's house. 


me: haa yasmeen shlounech??

yasmeen: tamam

me: yalla wain manor??

yasmeen: on her way

me: your parents weinhm?

yasmeen: ra7aw grandma's house

me: wain fahad?

fahad: BOO KANEY

me: waayyy :O

fahad: yal dalou3a

me: ana mu dalou3a :)

yasmeen: way yuma eeh 7ail mu dalu3a ! :(

me: chubaw akrahkum :)

fahad: afaa :O !

me: eh a7san ma7ebek la2anek 3ayabt 3alay ;p

fahad: la la khala9 asef !

me: ok

fahad: et7ebeni al7ein?

me: yemken :$

yasmeen: a7em ! I'm still here -.-

fahad: shtaben entay? magilna shay shfe omech entay?

yasmeen: wee3 ge6a3 barou7 afech elbab shaklha yet manour

me: ;)



Munera came, we said our hey's and everything then we headed to 360 w 6ab3an fahad was driving cause he got his licence a few months ago! ;p
We went to the cinema and i was sat next to fahad of course then when the movie finished we went to mac! Mazaj fahad :)!! 
We then went back home and then my driver picked me up w i headed back home! I had a really good time.




I got changed to my pj's and jumped on to my bed then i opened my ask and i found i have a new question,, i opened it and it said



" saw you in 360 today, you looked gorgeous - a boy"

I answered with: " thanks! Who are you ??? "



I quickly logged off my ask and told fahad ! Bas makan m3a9eb madrey laish !

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When you're gone CHAPTER 40

I spend the last week of my summer holidays going out with my parents and today is the last day of the holidays so I'm gonna get everything ready for school like uniform, shoes, bag etc! And yes I'm actually a person who does everything on the last minute! But hey thats just me :p !x



me: mama abi arou7 ashtre aghrath madresa !!

mom: okay yuma hack flous bas mu tkharbe6en feehm , w betru7ein wiya minu??

me: me and yasmeen, hatcheck ele yat wyaay elma6aar laman we picked you and dad up weli yet wyana 360 remember ;p??

mom: haww minu mathkerha?

me: mama she's yasmeen !!!! ele shway mtbtuba

mom: EHHHHHHHHHH

me: wooooohhh wakheeran tethakartay? -.-

mom: eeh haw ba3ad shswi yumah, elwa7d men yekbar yabdii ykharif

me: ohhh mama smila 3alaich don't say that !!

mom: inshallah wila tez3elen, yalla ru7ay 3shan amdeech teshterein ashya2ech ou derebalch 3ala nafsech

me: okay (kissed her forehead)

mom: yuuma 9alaitay el3a9er?

me: eh mama gabel manelich ta7at

mom: 3afyaa :*

me: yalla mama have to go ;p




I got in the car with the driver then i bbmed yasmeen:

me: PING!!!
       PING!!!
       PING!!!
       PING!!!

yasmeen: HAAA SHTABEEIN???

me: I'm omw !!!

yasmeen: zaain!!!

me: get ready mu t6awleein 3alay?? :)

yasmeen: k

me: don't you dare "K" me young lady!!

yasmeen:  jad jad chub!!! your not posh! you can't even be posh yel gangsta

me: ana gangsta :)???

yasmeen: eeh gangsta w ne9!!

me: ana a3almech ya kalba! maney yayetch :)

yasmeen: la la la la la khalaa99 you're so posh!! you're the queen of england babe :** LYYYYY

me: 3afya :)  Love Ya too :D

yasmeen: enzain weinch??

me: kane yalla 6el3ay bara

yasmeen: yalla


Yamseen got in the car and said: HEEYYYY!!!

me: besmellah!! ma cheney twney m7acheetch bbm wtf !!

yasmeen: chub :))

me: laish matenchabain entay??

yasmeen: zaaaiiinn

me: umbeeehhhh schoooooollll bacheerrrr yaa3333 yaa33333333333333333

yasmeen: 7EDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA YEEEE3333333333

me: lets start a funeral to the holidays :'(

yasmeen: yella :(

me: dear everyone, we are very sorry for your loss of miss holiday! She was a great thing and we will never forget her! She made everyone, laugh, cry, happy, sad and we will miss her a lot! :') *fake cry* waaahhhh!!!

yasmeen: waahhhhhh *fake cry*! May everyone bow their heads and were going to have a 1 minute of silence to show the memory and respect and love for miss holiday :")

me: LOOOOOOOOL wallah jad I'm gonna miss the holidays!!

yasmeen: nafsei wallah


We arrived to the maktba brought our stuff then we went to east pack avenues so we can buy our bags and there we met ..........
























MUNERA :O!!!!!



me: oomgggg manouuuurrrr :"( i miss yoooouuuuhhh

yasmeen: a7m hey :)

munera: week sorry hey yasuuummm ;p

me: umbeeh kalba i miss you wayd tara !!!

munera: i miss you too omg omggg waayyyyy jazi !!!!!! ya kalba i hate you geltay betswein fake account twitter 3ashan tsoulfen wyay bedoun mayadre jassoum bas u didn't !! -.-

me: wallah nseeet sorry ! btw jassoum ya weyach??

munera: nope, yeet with mom

me; ashwahh!! eeh guess what tadreein swina 7adeth me and yasmeeno ou her bro fahad akeid galatlch yasmeen ba3ad matkhsh shay ;p

munera: WHAT THE HELL???? SWEITAY 7ADETH??????? SH9AAR FEEICH !!! YASMEEN YA KALBA LAISH MAGELTELI !!

yasmeen: kint bagoulech bes my bro maretha gal you won't do anything about it cause of your bro jassoum! tad rein maykhaleeich tkalmein jazi!!

jazi: sooo !!! kint agar ayeey wiya elsayeg or anyone !!!

me: umbeeh 3ade tara bas kint eb coma  ;ss !!

munera; AY SHAYY!! YOU WERE IN COMA W TGOULEEEN 3ADEEY!!! WHATS FLIPING WRONG WITH YOUU

yasmeen: she was in coma for about 4 days bes!!

munera: umbeeeeeiiiihh slamat jazi I'm sorry i wasn't there for you bas yasmeeno elkalba magaltley wallah I'm sorry :"( i love you wallah

me: allah ysalmech! its ok i know your excuses ;p!!





Me and munera and yasmeen did some school shopping, I had so much fun with manour! I really missed her w a7la 9idfa laman sheft'ha today waayy!
Me and yasmeen said our goodbyes to jazi we hugged her and we had to go cause it was getting late, so i dropped off yasmeen and went to my house! I packed everything i needed, got my school uniform ready, and jumped on bed and started bbming fahad!

fahad: hey

me: hey ;p

fahad: shlounech?

me: bkheir

fahad: bkheir dameich bkheir

me: hehe :$

fahad: haaa shloun your last day of the holidays?

me: rubbish! i had to buy my school things, 6ab3an ekhtk yasmeen 6oul w7na ga3dein neshtrey t7en wtgoul take this w this :)

fahad: ba3ad ma3arfteeha :s

me: emballah wallah LOL

fahad: wba3ad??

me: uhhmmm sheft munera bel maktaba i missed her soo much!!

fahad: ohh zaaiin shfteeha ;p

me: eehh ;(

fahad: ela 9ij switay janaza 3al summer holiday o.o ?

me: shdrak?

fahad: yasmeenu galatle ;p

me: LMAO elkalba akraha :)

fahad: shswetaw bel janaza ?? KAAAAK

me: bas ga3adna nt7cha w chethi! it was 3aba6 though ;p

fahad: KAAAKKKK y7leilch :*

me:  ;$ yalla i have to go to bed now mabe anam mit2akher! goodnight love you ;p

fahad: MORE YABA3AD KILIEY! <333



I slept and woke up the next day on my stupid alarm, i banged the little alarm till it fell of the tale next to my bed, i got out of bed and then i went to the toilet did everything, got dressed to my school uniform and brushed my hair to a fish braid and got my bag and put my phone in my bags pocket and went running down the stairs finding mom and dad having breakfast! ;p

mom&dad: elsalam

me: w3leikm elsalam

dad: ha yabnyte elyoum first day of school! 3sa mistansa?

me: la 6ab3an bas waalaht 3ala my friends so i can't wait to see them ;p

mom; zeein ;p yalla eklay bsr3a w6l3ay elsayeg yan6rch latit2akherein

me: enshallah!


I ate my food quickly then i esxused myself to go !



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When you're gone CHAPTER 39

Me and yasmeen greeted my parents, we had a little chat! And gosh i miss my parents so so freakin much!


mom: yasmeen 7beebti ta3alay t3ashay 3endna

yasmeen: uhmm wallah khalte lazem as2al ukhuy etha retha at3asha 3endkm :*


Yasmeen called her brother fahad and asked him if she could stay round mine just for dinner and retha 


yasmeen: khalte ukhuy retha at3sha rendkm ;p

mom: eeh yalla zeein retha

dad: yalla wain elsayeg bnayte?

me: bara yn6r belcar dad

dad: yalla 3yal mesheina



We got  in the car, the whole ride me and yasmeen were asking my parents about norway and what was the weather and you know the typical questions -.-


me: mamaaaaaa yebteyle souqaaa????

mom: eeeh bas mu al7en a36ech eyaha, 3ugb el 3asha

me: wohooo thanks yumaaaa *_______*

mom: el3afw 7beebti

me: enzain yuba enta yebtley souqa??

dad: eeh yebtlech yebtlech latkhafen yabnyte, adre bt3jbch

me: 6ab3aan bt3jbnee madamik enta mekhtarha!!! :*

dad: 7beebti bnayte :**




We arrived at the house, my parents went to their room, they were very tired so they excused themselves to go and have a short nap and while they were napping me and yasmeen were messing about in the garden and playing with my neighbours dog, taking pictures and at the end we watched t.v! 
After i like 2 hours my parents woke up and said that were gonna go have dinner in T.G.I fridays ( AHH MY FAVE!!)  Of course me and yasmeen kina 7adna mistanseein madre laish lol :: ! 

dad: ay fridays tabuun?

me: 360!!

yasmeen: elba7ar!!!

mom: 360

dad: khala9 3yal sam7eena bnayte yasmeen bas elaghlbya voted for T.G.I fridays 360

yasmeen: la 3ade 3ame ;( ;p

me whispering: tara fridays 360 3ajeeib!!

yasmeen: m7sesetney ina i never saw it ever in my life !! -__-

me: la bas I'm telling you ge6a3 -.-

yasmeen: chuppaaayyy :(

me: we3 nethamech??

yasmeen: umpaaaiiih shfech t3aypeen 3lay shnu mu 3ajpech kalami ? :(

me: eeh wallah mu 3ajepni kalamich la2ane men net ham el losers 3araftay 7upii :(??

yasmeen: eeh 3araft 7apeepti :(

me: WAAYYYY333 NETHAM EL (P) BEDAEL EL (B)

yasmeen: 7addddaaaaa akrah people who replace the (p) with the (b) jad jad thats stupid! like seriously they need to get a life LMAO

me: tara maytha7ek ::

yasmeen: chub :)

me: echubech :)

dad: siktaww ya banat wallah enkum muz3ejein mashallah 3leeikm bas tgargeruun!!

mom: haw khalhum esulfuun ystansuun 3ade wallah ana mu menza3ja, a9lan ana ga3da asma3 swalufhm wath7ak smile 3leehm

me: you rock mom B-)



Mom laughs and then after 10 minutes my dad said we arrived, so we got down and me and yasmeen asked my mom and dad if we can just walk around 360 and that they can wait for us in fridays and they said were aloud YAY

Ga3adna nitmasha ou ndesh elstores! tara i hate 360 ma7alata maleqa i only like the restaurants because i love البلعه !    I bet everyone loves that too :D

While we were walking we bummed into :o ......
















































Fahad :O !!!!


yasmeen: fahouud shetswe meney!!!

fahad: wallah ga3d atswag! shetshufeen ya3ne -.-? Yeet meney l2na shift foursquare jazouya

me: were you like stalking me my dear boyfriend ? -.-

fahad: not really bas 7abait ayeey cause abi ashufch

yasmeen; wana matabe tshufnee ???haa !! UGHHH

fahad: ana shab3 men wayhch kilyooum stghfrllah masheft ela elgarada men wayhech

yasmeen: chub i hate you

fahad: i do to :*

me: tara e7na yayeen with my parents ! ;p

fahad: week 9ij?

me: wallah, lazem enru7 now mabe net2akhar 3alaihm

fahad: khal amshe wrakm 3ashan mayl7gunkm el9byaan

me: okaayy

yasmeen: lazga ge6a3!


Fahad ignored her and we started walking till we reached fridays and thats when fahad left us.


dad: bnayte mnu hatha ele la7gkum???

me: yubaa hatha ukhu yasmeen! shafna namshe w gal laish ga3d tam shun bru7km chan egulena enred elma63am ou gal bymshe wrana 3shan mayl7guna el9byan :D

dad: 3afya 3alaih ykhaf 3la ekhta w3la bent elnas

me: eh hehe :D

mom: ela yasmeen ukhuch cham 3umra

yasmeen: twa mkamil 18

mom: eeh allah ykhleeh lich enshallah

yasmeen: ameein!






We ate our food, khala9na then ga6aina yasmeen beit'hum then headed back home and then my parents gave my my souqa's they were amazing ahhh ! I thanked them a lot and then i excused my self because i was tired so i went to bed without checking any messages that i got on my phone!