Sometimes.. (short poem)

Heey guyss!! I havent wrote a post in ages so i decided to write a short poem to entertain the bored ones :p


There you go ..
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Sometimes i feel like i hate my life,

Sometimes i feel that i'm usless,

Sometimes i feel that i need to rest from everything,

Sometimes i feel like i need someone to be there for me,

Sometimes i feel like crying my heart out,

Sometimes i feel like i'm lonely and sometimes i feel like hugging any random person and telling them everything i'm hiding,

Sometimes i feel like i make too much mistakes,

Sometimes i feel like closing my eyes and rising,
Rising up to where the blue skies and clouds are,

But i know that i was made to be in this life to try the rough and tough things cause life is just a short exam that were doing and sooner or later it'll end.

Me ... ( short post )

hey guys, how are you? i hope you're doing well! I miss writing so much so i decided to write a short random post, and yeah i'm doing that instead of doing my homework's but i prefer writing a post so yeah hehe !xx



Enjoy

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Well where can i start?

I'm just an ordinary teenage girl who's trying to live her life,
I may not be perfect, but i'm always me! and plus nobody's perfect right?
I make mistakes! But who doesn't?
I can be jealous at sometimes but its only because if something is meant to be mine, then it has to be mine,
i'm not a kind of stubborn person, i'm actually quite peaceful,
i hate arguing and i hate fights,
i'm bubbly and i laugh whenever i get the chance to, 
i try to smile as much as i can, cause this life's to short to be sad and frown about anything,
i may not be the prettiest but i believe that everyone is beautiful in their own way.
I know for sure that i'm not the best but i'm definite that i'm not like the rest.

A short story - The mistaken love

Hey guys !! How are youuu?? I hope you're great! I actually miss you so much and i miss typing too and well i feel quite bored so i decided to write a short story for you to enjoy reading hehe xx

And Eidkum mubarak!!!!! I know its a bit early but yeah ;p x

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Where am i?

I said that while opening my eyes and hearing my voice echoe through the dark and gloomy garage i was in,
i couldn't see very well..
my hands were tied together and they were attached to the chair, 
it's obvious i can't move!


But who did this to me? How did it happen? When and why?
Is this just a dream?

I was just sat there tied to the chair all on my own in this dark place, I was freezing and i had nothing to make me feel warm,

tears started streaming down my face and i started crying. Silently.
Too afraid for anyone to hear me.

Am i gonna die? I mean i never did anything mean to anyone i shouldn't die this way..

I started crying till i heard a squeaky door bang open..











"You're awake?" he said.

Who are youu?? and why am i here ?? I replied whilst i was trying to move back

 " you don't have to know who i am, and you're here because you're good prey :* " he said that while taking one step near me.

I started shivering, he came closer and closer..

He bent down and whispered " you'll be safe with me babe. " 

I got goose bums and i started sweating un believably, i was terrified.

This is too much, so i started crying till he put his finger on my lips and said " shhhhhh, don't cry baby its all going to be alright", He wiped my tears away and walked out of the room.
Leaving me alone in this disgusting place.






I prayed and prayed to God so i can get out of this place and without noticing.. i slept.



I woke up the next day finding a tiny bit of sun shine through a little broken window, but the place is still dark even though its the morning.

I need the toilet desperately what should i do? UGH

Suddenly the same guy from yesterday came in...

" you're awake?" he said repeating what he said yesterday,

I replied with - yes i am, i need the toilet please, is there a toilet here?

" yes there is a small toilet in the end of the room, let me untie you " he said while uniting my hands from the chair

Thankyou - i said, while touching the bruises on my hands.

He led me to the toilet and as soon as i entered i felt sick!!! 

It was so horrible and dirty! The smell was disgusting and the toilet seat was covered in dirt!

It's too dirty - i said while making a disgusted and scared face

" it's the only toilet we have for the prisoners here, sorry  " he said while laughing 

It's not funny ok! I need the pee while this toilet is disgusting and i'm talking to stranger which happens to be you, and i'm in this horrible scary place and i don't even know why !!!!- i said that whilst wiping my tears.

" you're really cute when you're mad, you know that?" He said that while smiling at me.

uhhmm well thank you! I don't even know you but you're not bas yourself ;p - i said that with a confused expression on my sleepy face


" you're welcome, my name is jack by the way " He said 

nice name - i said

" and i know that your name is emily" he said

I was surprised, and not only that but i was gobsmacked!!!

How do you know my name?- i said while taking a step backwards..

" I know every little detail about you " - he said with a confident smile and a wink 

Are you gonna kill me?- i said

" no, not quite. " - he said with a sad expression

Can you tell me the truth please !- i said 

" you're not going to die trust me " - he said while holding my hand..

DONT TOUCH ME - i shouted while running away from him, but he was too fast and he catched me..

" i won't hurt you i never will, i promise"- he said while being so close to me

How can i believe you?? I mean you're just a stranger who kidnapped me - i said

" i never kidnapped you, it was my friend, i'm the one who's encharged of you " - he said while letting go of me

is he here?? is he gonna hurt me? - i said with a worried expression

" no " he said

but .. - i said

" but i'm here to protect you from him don't worry, i told you you'll be safe " he said while making me sit down on the chair 

thank you - i said



Days passed by so slow! And jack would come in to check on me all the time, He's so sweet, i mean i don't get why he helps the kidnappers, i feel like he's too good to do these type of evil stuff!

So far he's the only one i trust, My relationship with him had grew so much bigger and were very close now,, he told me his secrets surprisingly ! And i actually told him one of mine!

I trust him so much i feel that he understands me a lot, he told me how much he missed his family cause its been 5 years since he saw them and he'll never see them again because of this job he does.


Why do you do this job? - i asked, being curious

" it's the only thing that can offer me a shelter and good money" he said sadly

But its not nice kidnapping girls is it?- i said

" no its not, it never will be, maybe to my boss and his mates but not to me it isn't"  he said scratching his head


We stayed silent for a while, then he broke that silence after a while by saying

" have you ever fallen in love?"


Never, what about you? - i replied


" i've never fallen in love too, i don't even know if love exists " he said.

You wouldn't be born if love didn't exist ;p i said while giggling

He giggled too and said " yeah ok i guess love does exist then.. "



He excused himself that day and left me, feeling actually happy> I slept that day feeling like a part of me has been put back again.

It turned out jack isn't a bad person at the end ;p!


2 days passed and jack hasn't came to check on me.. 

I got worried and scared wondering what the hell happened to him.

Till Oneday....







































he came in with his hind behind his back!

I got terrified, like what the hell is he hiding !!

" close your eyes" he said

I closed them and then he told me to open them!

And there he was holing a little cute flower!

OMG thats so cute where did you get that from???- i said

" from the garden near the garage " he said with a cute smile

I blushed, i don't know why but it was so cute. 


" i love you " he said..

what? - i said being confused

" i love you.. " he repeated

I actually had a crush on him the whole time, i mean he looked so fit and cute and i found out the real him which is adorable so i guess i love him too..

uhmm me too - i said while blushing 

" i know its weird cause I'm a stranger but i couldn't hold it anymoe! You just brought be back to life!! I mean i feel like what i do is heartless and what you did is that you brought me alive again!!! " he said with a massive smile though he had some tears in his eyes

I'm glad i did :*


Days passed and i'm still in this garage place, jack would come in all the time, he know brings me snacks and drinks and he even brings games for us to play!! You may think it's weird but i'm actually having fun though i'm defiantly not having fun with the stinky toilet :).



One day i was alone in the garage room waiting for jack when the door opened, i knew it was jack so i started running to hug him. But it wasn't jack.. It was a muscly big guy with a scary big face.

He pushed me to the floor and started kicking me,

I was in pain!! I need jack where is he!!!!!!

Then he clapped with his hands and two big guys came and picked me up and started dragging me out of the room!

At first i was happy cause i thought i'm going to get out of here but then i realised i won't because the place got darker and darker each time we got closer.

They got me in this tiny room and hung me on this metal thing to the wall.


My hands were separate very wide and so were my legs..


Where's jack? - i said

" i'm here " he said while coming out from a hiding place 

What are they gonna too to me??? I'm in pain already jack! - i said while crying

" Forgive me " he said standing there with teary eyes

whyy? - said

" just forgive me for what's going to happen now please" - he said

And without realising, i started getting whipped and beaten up by the big guys, every time the whip touched my skin, i felt it burn, i saw the blood coming out.

I saw jack's broken looks, he looked so sorry.
I was in too much pain and i couldn't feel anything, anymore i knew its not jack's fault whats happening to me i'm sure, he promised me he'd never hurt be before and he never will brake his promise..

I was getting beaten up so hard that all i knew, was that i said I love you to jack,

and that quickly my eyes closed down, without a warning, just like that.

I got beaten up so hard that my body couldn't hold all this pain.

" she's not dead is she ?" jack said with a worried face

" thats one prey down, we need to hunt for another" The big guy said

" YOU FLIPPING IDIOT, YOU KILLED THE ONLY PERSON I EVER LOVED YOU FREAKING A**HOLE !!!!!!! " 

" You knew she was gonna end this way so stop being a drama king and get ready to kidnap another girl "

I guess that emily didn't deserve to die this way but she defiantly spent her last days with the most special person she ever cared for, her mistaken love Jack.

I can't believe she's dead, It turned out that i showed her what love is in a mistaken way, she'll never forgive me, i didn't get to tell her goodbye, she just died! And i couldn't control it, I'll miss you emily RIP baby I love you forever  - he said wiping his tears away

 THE END

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When you're gone CHAPTER 50! FINALE

The whole ride to the hotel, both me and fahad were silent and i was wondering if anything was going on his mind, but i was too shy to ask him! I was too shy to do anything, i just feel like i've never known fahad huh i just have mixed emotions right now !!

We arrived at the hotel and went to our suite! Gosh it was so amazing<3


fahad: jazi?

me: hmm?

fahad:mistansa?

me: umm eeh..

fahad: shnu sh3ourech?

me: madre mistansa 3ala khayfa 3ala mitwatra ..

fahad: shdaw3a kil hatha wana fahad??

me: eh ..

fahad: tara its ok mani maklich! I'm a human not a monster

me: I knooow !! bas I'm just nervous cause ya3ne madre i can't explain it

fahad: i love you

me: i love you too

fahad: ta3alay

me: menii??

fahad: eeh

me: ok


I came closer to him and he was just staring at me! Yup just staring.


me: shfeek?

fahad: mntay mbadla?

me: emballah al7ein barou7 abadel bel7mam

fahad: shnu bel7mam, badly meni

me: ay shay fahad:)?

fahad: i'm your husband! 3adeeyyy

me: no :)


I went to look at my pyjamas and guess what i found? A bunch of UNSUITABLE pyjamas or shall i say underwear :)
When my mom said she'll buy me nice pyjamas i though yeah she'll buy me nice pyjamas ! But i didn't know she'll buy me pyjamas that look so open EWWW
Huuf wee3 i don't wanna wear this type of "pyjamas" in front of fahad fashla :) baas shswe i have nothing else to do! 

Oh god ;/ i changed to the unsuitable "pyjamas" then i luckily found a robe to cover myself with yaay ;p


fahad: laish labsa robe?

me: uhhm.. bardana!

fahad: its summer -.-

me: uhmm el AC bared!!

fahad: ok akhaleeh less colder

me: NOO!!!

fahad: laish?

me: madre :(

fahad: shfech?

me: wla shay

fahad: 3ayal f9khay elrobe

me: mabe ;(

fahad: shlabsa??

me: malabs...

fahad: madamich labs malabs then fi9khay elrobe

me: NOO :(

fahad: haw!!



I quickly ran to the bed, took off the robe and hid under the blanket so fahad doesn't see the unsuitable "pyjamas"


fahad: ohh f9khtay elrobe :o?

me: yes but you can't see me I'm under the blanket!!!


Fahad quickly under the blanket and there i was mitrab3a with the blanket over me, in the unsuitable "pyjamas"



fahad: so thats why you were hiding *wink* ;)

me: close your eyes :O

fahad: jazi calm down I'm your husband ok! Tara 3ade just chill

me: but :( -

fahad: oushhhhhhh :*




He leaned over and kissed me gently with his soft lips, I did the same and decided to not ruin the moment!

I had my eyes closed the whole time till fahad backed off and thats when i opened them again.
It was a weird feeling!

I just felt like i was floating up the whole time!


fahad: a7ebich

me extremely shyly: ana ba3ad :$




I slept that night feeling SO INLOVE and i woke up the next morning and had breakfast with fahad at the buffet . 



fahad: jazi

me: 3younha :*

fahad: tislamle hal 3youun :*, 7abeebti tabein 3ers?

me: eeh 3ade??

fahad: itha tabeein nsweeh next week

me: eeh please! It's my dream to have a wedding like every other girl

fahad: wallah yhimich ! elwedding next week enshallah

me: thankyoou fahad :( <3

fahad: 7beebti you're more than welcome



I went shopping with my friends and i brought my wedding dress! It was soo soo beautiful and i brought my shabka and shoes and bla bla you know everything a girl needs to buy for her wedding!

One day me, fahad and yasmeen were in 360 having lunch when...
Yousef called fahad saying that munera is giving birth!



fahad: munera ga3da toulad

me: OMGGG YALLA EMSH KHAL ENROUU7 ELHOSPITAL

yasmeen: WAAYY YALLA KHAL NROUU7 WANAAASAAA


We quickly got in fahad's car and he started driving really fast so we can reach the hospital in time !

After a while we arrived and we started running to the pregnancy area w re7na 9oub ghurfat el3amaliyat wila nlage yousef waiting outside!


fahad: ha wainhe?

yousef: dakhel 9arlaha ni9 sa3a


Mawa3eina ila the doctor came out 


yousef: ha doctor basher?

doctor: mabrouk

yousef: allah ybarek feeik doctor khoush bshara *tears*


Both me and yasmeen started screaming!! 
Umbaaih wanasa our friend is now a mother!! She now has her baby son which just started his life! A new beggining!
She's going to go through a lot but its going to be worth it 3shan trabi elbaby!
Im so so so happy for her!


fahad: shbitsamouna?

yousef: elesem ele tabeh munera


Fahad waited outside with yousef while me and yasmeen went in and saw munera laying in bed with the baby in her hands! OMG it looked adorable !!!!!!!!


me: mabrouuuuuuuuuukkkkk mayach manouuuurrra 7ade mistansaa waaaayyyyyy

munera: allah ybarek feich

yasmeen: mabrouk mabrouk mabrouuk i love you manouurr ! al7mdla 3alsalama

munera: allah ybarek feich 7beebti i love you too! allah ysalmech!!


Munera and yousef decided to name their baby boy Hamad!

After a week Unfortunately fahad's grandma passed away so our wedding was cancelled and fahad was so broken !
He was so close to his grandma he loved her so much! Everyday he would cry whenever he remembers her!
But he was always strong in front of his parents and sister yasmeen, i mean he had to be! So that they can be strong too.



3 weeks later It's my wedding day !

I went to the salon with munera and yasmeen! We had everything done then we headed to the hotel so we can get dressed there, because i had a room booked in for me + thats were my wedding was going to be.

I got changed to my wedding dress 

munera: simple yet cute! thats you're motto baby, looking amazing btw

me: thankyoooouuu

yasmeen: 7adich zouqa!! go and shine today! Its you're night, your wedding ;p

me: will do! thanksssss nafsch :*

yasmeen: no need

me: 7ade khayfa!!!

yasmeen: it will be ok!



Later we went down to el9ala ele my wedding was going to be in and omg it was amazing and it was just filled with people!
I only knew quarter of the people lol.

Thats how it looked like

Doesn't it look amazing?:')

I walked to my kousha and all eyes were on me! 
I finally reached my kousha and everyone came and took pictures and said mabrouk etc!
After a while fahad came in with my dad and the men related to us then we cut our cake and had the dinner! It was great!

I had my wedding and it was beyond amazing! Thats one dream came true..


That night me and fahad went to the hotel, i got changed and sat on bed waiting for fahad to come out from the toilet so we can chat ;p..
After a while fahad came out


fahad: ha baby shlounech?

me: great! estanast bbel3ers?;p

fahad: eeh, 3sa estanastay entay?

me: yup bas sometimes 7seit it was boring -.- ! It was amazing though !!!

fahad: good!! (he said that and kissed my forehead straight away)

me: aha ;p

fahad: 7beebti

me: halla?

fahad: close your eyes

me: ok

I closed my eyes


fahad: open them

me: what are these?

fahad: their tickets to maldives for tomorrow! Its going to be just me and you ;*

me: OMMGGG THANKYOOOOOUUU FAHAD


I hugged him straight away ! Omg i can't believe that I'm going to go the maldives for my honeymoon ! It's unbelievable waayy i'm so happy!!!
I swear thats the best thing i've ever heard aahhh



me: fahad shloun bnsafer bachr wana mazahbt jan6ete??

fahad: i told your mom and she said she'll brig you your suitcase tomorrow at the airport

me: oh okay!


I slept and woke up the next morning on the stupid alarm !
Great now i have to wakeup fahad :)




me: fahad

fahad: hmmm

me: FAHAD

fahad: hmmmmmmmmmm


I jumped over him and started shaking him so he can wakeup when suddenly, he pushed me and so i fell on top of him :|
AWKWARD

fahad: good morning  sunshine

me: finally! good morning 7beebi!! Can you let go of me now please?

fahad: NO

me: I'm currently laying on top of you and its not comfy so please hedni

fahad: i will keep hold of you forever

me: we're going to miss our plane 7beebi!! Now common let go of me and get out of bed :*

fahad: huh mabe :(


I kissed him on his cheek and said,

me: thats you're good morning kiss now betgoum wila la >>

fahad: a7la bousa men a7la jazi, yalla gimt gimt!


Wooh he finally lt go of me! I'm free -.-


Fahad went to the toilet to do his stuff while i changed and applied my makeup and did my hair and after that fahad came out, then he got changed as well and we packed our stuff! And We're ready to go!
We headed to have breakfast from the buffet then we went to the hospital and my parents and fahad's parents were there!

mom: yumaa 7beebti jazi!! derebalch belsafra

me: enshallah mama

dad: bnayte abeich testansein belsafra

me: enshallah baba

fahad's mom: derebalch 3ala wlayde jazi maw9ech

me:matw9en 7are9 khalte


Me and fahad said our goodbyes to our parents and headed to our gate!

We got in the airplane and luckily my seat was next to the window and fahad was right next to me. The whole ride which was 7 hours was very boring -.-! 
Fahad slept the whole way ou 6ab3an his head was on my shoulders w kil mara at7arak y6l3 weird noise which is just weird.

After the 7 hours we landed safely and OMG I CANT BELEIVE IT IM IN THE MALDIVES!!!!


fahad: yalla khal ndawer taxi

me: ok


We got a taxi and the taxi took us to our resort and the place was just beautiful ! The scene of our resort was beyond amazing!!

me: allaaahhh!!!

fahad: yabouuy <3_<3 !! ELMANTHAR NAARR

me: 7addaa!!!



Me and fahad are spending our honey moon amazingly in the maldives! 
It's filled with laughs and romance, we are happy all the time, and hopefully we always will be, and I'm sure that this all will be amazing memories that we will have at the maldives because its for sue an unforgettable thing!

I'm enjoying my time here and another dream of my dreams came true.


Im glad i met fahad, he's now one of the important people in my life,
he's my love and my hero, he's basically my everything and I'm sure that without him my life would suck.





You see everything happened as a dream when i was little and now? Everything i dreamed came true! so thats why you should never stop dreaming, because what i believe is that all dreams come true, not straight away but someday they do.

And about true love?

It exists! You just need to wait for the right person to come in you're life and prove to you that they are you're true love, you might get stabbed and broken by a few but i will be worthy when you find the right one, and at the end you'll get a happy ending, cute and simple yet it can just be as happy as all the fairy tales stories.

                                                    THE END

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ATTENTION PLEASE:

 I hope you guys enjoyed my story as much as i enjoyed sharing it to you! I'm so happy because i would have not made it this far without your support you guys are amazing! 

I seriously wanna thank you (all my readers and the silent ones) for reading my story and i would thank all the people who commented and give me feedback and just helped me through the whole way!

I ADORE YOU SO MUCH ! AND IM SO HAPPY TO HAVE YOU AS MY READERS!

Please don't stop reading my blog as i will still continue blogging and i will be posting short stories and maybe if i can i will do another long story but i'll see how everything goes, but for now i'm gonna say bbye!!

For any things you wanna say then heres my twitter: @whenyourgonexox

and heres my ask http://ask.fm/whenyourgone


Oh and please don't stop reading my blog cause its not over :p


Thankyou again for your support i love you guys like ALOT !!

Much love to you my amazing readers !xoxoxo

When you're gone CHAPTER 49

Im typing this chapter instead of studying for my maths test tomorrow. Oh well haha, i know you guys hate it when i don't post everyday, so there you go a long post ;) x

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me: so mama whats wrong

mom: wala shay bas abe a7acheech ta3alay

me: okk

mom: yuma 7beebti entay tad rein ena entay al7ein tkhrjtay men elcollag w entay al7ein 18 ou tabein tdeshein jam3a ou ya3ne mashallah 3alaich 9rtay mara..

me: eehh??

mom: fa ya3ne elyoum fe nas dagaw 3alay...

me: mnu ohmaa??

mom: khe6ab, yawlouuch khe6ab ou yabounech yabnaytee !

me: WHAAAAAAT :") *TEARS*

mom: yuma tara khoush naass

me: MABE ATZAWAJ ANA MA3RFHUM!

mom: emballah t3arfeenhum zeein

me: 9ij?;o

mom: eeh ohwa fahad wild ****** ele ekhta yasmeen al******

me: 7ILFAY MAMA?

mom: haw eeh laish bag9 3alaich

me: ya3ne he wants to marry me????

mom; EEEHHH!

me: uhhm mama i'll think about it...

mom: ekhthay waktech yuma, mabeich tista3yleein :*

me: OK


I couldn't say yes straight away because my mom may think I'm all over fahad or something, which i am but like you know....
I Just can't believe!! I was the girl fahad was gonna marry my the whole time!!! UHHH thats so confusing i have to call yasmeeeen




RING
RING
RING


yasmeen: haaaaaayyyy

me: kalba kalba kalbaaa

yasmeen: laish??

me: is it true fahad kheabney??

yasmeen: so i guess your mom told ya

me: just tell me is it true ?????

yasmeen: yuppp

me: OMGGG ASJDBJFRJFBHWFYUGFURGFUJ MU M9ADGAAAA AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH WAAAAAAAAYYYYYYY

yasmeen: 7ADDDDAAAAA, wafaqtaayy??

me: no bacher x ;p

yasmeen: shma3na??

me: 3ashan it doesn't sound like I'm so over fahouuud

yasmeen: looool 7beebtiii ! Umbeih jad I'm so flipn happy for youhhhh and for fahouuud

me: 7beebii yasmeeen thankyooouuu

yasmeeen: you're welcome jazouuuyy



I slept that night feeling happier than ever! I literally felt over the moon, its just unbelievable how at the end of the time I'm actually going to be fahad's wife!!


I woke up the next day, did everything i needed and sat with my parents, had a chat and watched t.v, also ate breakfast and then my mom asked me about the marriage thing ...


mom: ha yuma jazi 3asa fakartay ??

me: eeh fakart

mom: 3asa mwafqa yuma?

me: hmmm

dad: sm3ene yabnayte.. hatha elqarar mu sahel w tara elzawaj mu le3ba, fa yabnayte muta ma7setay enech jahza goleilna ejabtech

me: baba ana fakart zain ou ana mwafqa

mom: mabrouukk yabnayteee :************

dad: mabrouuk 7beebti

me: allah ybarek feekum, bas ma9ar shay yuma ou yuba lool shufaw kalmouhum

mom: eeh al7eein adeg 3al mara 3shaan eyoun eshufoufnech

me: okkk








So my mom called fahad's mom and they arranged the khe6ba and everything so their coming tomorrow i guess to chat and everything

I went upstairs to find a suitable dress for the khe6ba while a strange number started calling me..











me: alo??

...: ------

me: ALOOOOO??

....: jazi ..

me: FAHAD :O ???????

fahad: eeh fahad

me: fahad i hate yoouu

fahad: i love you! walla asef jazi bas yasmeen galatle aswi kilshay bhal 6areqa because i thought ra7 tistanseein 7aail..

me: eeh stanast 7aail 7aail bas bechaait tara.. you broke me :(

fahad: wallah asef

me: its ok,, so know you're not getting married to someone else 9a7???

fahad: eeh I'm getting married to you only! You're my girl and you will always be

me: ya3ne you love me?

fahad: i will always love you jazi

me: ya3ne I'm going to be you're future wife ??

fahad: and i will be you're future husband!!

me: OMG I'm so happy *tearing*

fahad: tukfein jazi latabcheen dam3etech ghalya 3alay wallah law agar chan shega7tlch men eltelephone wye 3endch 3shan ams7 hal dmouu3 , yalla 3ad baby stop it

me: i refuse to waste any more tears on you because i just love youuuu

fahad: 7beebti entaay :* 3afyaa

me: *tearing&giggling* hehe :$

fahad: a7ebich

me: ana ba3ad :$

fahad: wallah wallah a7beich

me: wallah ana baa3d

fahad: tara wallah amout 3alaichh

me: ana a3shegik ;p

fahad: shnuu???

me: now don't push it -.- yalla byee

fahad: yabouuuyy! bye ya rou7ee byee



LOL i love fahad! He made my day through that call, he never fails to make me smile! I'm so glad we're getting married soon. I love him <3

I slept and woke up the next day, had breakfast, then went to the hair dresser with manouur, yasmeen makant tegdar tyeey she had to go to another salon with her mom,

Me and manour had our nails, makeup and hair done! Simple yet pretty ! 
Thats my motto baby lol.

I headed back home and then changed to the clothes of the khe6ba..

After a while my mom told me the guests arrived ( fahad and his family)
I went downstairs, gave out tea, biscuits and sweets and then sat down and started chatting to fahad's mom, and she was so sweet ..
She talked to me about what i want to be, and how I'm going to manage it when I'm only 18,
6ab3an yasmeen kept on staring at me all the time w kildgeega etyene eltha7ka.

After that the mom's started talking about the milcha and wedding then the buffet was set so they were going to have their food in the other lounge, while fahad was going to come in so he can (talk) to me..

The maid let him in, and there he was walking! Sooo cute beldishdasha *.* 
Baby I'm just melting.


fahad: alsalam

me shyly: wa3alaikum elsalam

fahad: shlounech jazi?

me: bkheir

fahad: 3asa doom enshalla

me: damat ayamik

fahad: tadren enech 9ayra t'hablen? kal3ada

me shyly: tislam

fahad: ysalmech

me: i can't believe it fahad!

fahad: you have to 7beebti! You're finally going to be my wife !!


I smiled and my cheeks were so red!

fahad: ana ma7thouth feeich! Amout 3alaich jazi, wallah a7ebich

me: ana ba3ad :$!!!


Later the maid came and said fahad had to go out because the women were coming in, so bless he had to go in the diwanya and soon everyone finished.
And the milcha is after 2 weeks!








2 WEEKS LATER



OMG ITS MY MIlCHA DAAYYYYY!!!! I'M SO HAPPY !!!!!!!!
I went the spa, salon and did everything i needed with munera and yasmeen and we were all just excited ! 

Sawoule tasre7a ma3ana makent abe but they made me have it ou 7a6oule wayed makeup bas khalait'hhum yems7una ou y76ule yah again but very simple cause i don't like my face being a parachute :)

Then we arrived home and got dressed, both munera and yasmeen looked gorgeous, they always do bless i love them! 
and no i got changed to my dress...

munera: you look stunning babe!

yasmeen: go on and take it out there its your night babyyy love youu

me: love you too guys thankyoou so mucchhh <3




The milcha went on very slowly but i was enjoying every second of it ! yet every time the clock ticked i got shivers because i was just so scared cause i'll be spending the rest of my time with fahad. alone !

Luckily after a while, the milcha ended, me ad fahad salamana 3ala our parents then we went to the hotel to spend the rest of our night.

When your gone CHAPTER 48

This week is my last week in collage, i'm having my final exams now and its quite a rough time for me,
I would study everyday for hours and hours and i would go to collage the next day, to apply for my exams, and i would come back home extremely tired

Yasmeen is going through the same, though she goes to a different collage than me, 

Munera is now 5 months pregnant and she's pregnant with a boy <3!!





mom: yalla yuma btit2akhereein 3ala emti7anech

me: enshallah mama just give me a few minutes a anzeil

mom: yallla



I quickly Got changed to jeans and a t-shirt, tied my hair into a bun then quickly grabbed my purse, bag, phone and wore my shoes and started running downstairs like a crazy mental person ;/





dad: yalla bnayte ekhthelch hal 9amouna omich swtlch eyaha, ekleiha bel6ireej latit2akherin

me: sure

mom: yalla yumaa, hach !

me: ok., thanks mama , yalla byeee

dad: allah y7afthech, biltawfeeg

me: mashkour baba




I ran to my car and realised i forgot my keys so i had to run back to the house, get my key and come out again.
Gosh i looked so stupid and i was proper freaked out! Yarab i make it on time for the exam.
I drove for about a whole hour! All the roads were crowded and as soon as i reached the collage i ran to the room, and i forgot to lock my car but who cares i had one minute left to the exam



professor: you're right on time, common hurry up and sit there quietly and i will give you your exam

me: ok


I sat on the table at the back and everyone was sat silently waiting for their exam papers.



professor: there you go jazi here's your paper you can start now

me: sure

professor: everyone you may start your exam now



I was just sat there looking at the exam paper with my eyes wide o.o ! I mean dude when did i ever study that! That's so out of order, 

Time was going by and all i could hear was the ticking of the clock and the breathing of even student in the class, yes it was that silent. 



professor: Time's up


Damn it!!!!! 
I swear i only answered 5 questions :) 
lets hope i get at least one question right ..

I handed the professor my exam paper and headed back to my car, as soon as i got in i felt thirsty, so i decided to go to starbucks to take a drink takeaway plus the weather was quit hot.





worker @ starbucks: hello mam what do you ..

me: what??

worker @ starbucks: what would you....

me: i can't hear you probably

worker @ starbucks: SORRY OUR SPEAKERS ARE NOT WORKING VERY WELL, I SAID WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO ORDER MAAM ?????

me: A CARAMEL FRAPPACINO PLEAASEEE

worker @ starbucks: OK, Move to the next till PLEASE MAAAM

me; thanks :)



I got my drink w jad that worker pissed me off :) yakhe your speakers don't work fix them bdal mat9arkhen 3alay :))))

I drove back home and i arrived finding my mom and dad watching t.v

me: salam

parents: wa3lekm elsalam



mom: jazi yuma muta tkhal9een elcollage??

me: bacr akhr youm acne bachr akhr exam ou egouloun our graduation 3ugb bachr

mom: zeein yalla 3ad she day 7eilch bachr

me: enshallah





The day passed quickly and i woke up the next morning, did the same thing, got up late, had to rush everything and had to do my final exam with being so stressed which i found very hard !

As soon as i finished my exam, i went back home and sent time chatting with my parents then i chose my outfit for the graduation at my collage tomorrow and went to sleep straight away.











I woke up the next day feeling so happy, i went to the toilet and did everything, then i did my hair, applied my makeup and got dressed, and went downstairs to have my breakfast with my family, Though it was 3 el3aser, but i woke up late -,-

I had breakfast with them then we were ready to go to my graduation.

We arrived there and all my friends was there and munera was sat there waiting with yousef with her big tummy stopping her from walking, bless she looked so adorable.



Me: manouuuuuuuuurr

munera: waaayy your graduation from the stupid collage

me: i know wooohhooooo

munera: lool

me: hows the baby ??

munera: its gooooodddd ;p

me: yakhteee



I got graduated al7mdla and me and my parents and friends went to celebrate then as soon as i arrived home, i went t=up to my bedroom and changed to my pi's when suddenly ...


mom: jazi

me: halla mama?

mom: ta3alay bakalmich

me: shfeech mama whats wrong?



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When you're gone CHAPTER 47

I'm sorry if this chapter is short but i don't have that much ideas to write so yeah sorry but hope you enjoy it x

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As you know i just got my licence and I'm so happy i just don't know where to go out so i decided to call manour and yasmeen if they want to join me today as its my first day of driving ahh!



RING

RING

RING


munera: heey jazi !

me: hey shlounech shakbarech?

munera: not bad wallah, u?

me: I'm fine :*

munera: so shfeech?

me: I JUST GOT MY LICENSE *scream* !!!!!

munera: OMG mabrouuuuk babe !!

me: allah ybarek feich

munera: ay syara 7a9altay?

me: mini cooper ! The one i wanted *scream*

munera: wansaa !!!!! :**

me: 7adaaa!! so taben te6le3en ma3ay today?

munera: la7tha khal as2al yousef

me: ok


MUNERA'S POINT OF VIEW:


me: youseeeeeffffff

yousef: halla 7beebti?

me: 3ade a6la3 wiya jazi elyoum? maskena taw he m6al3a her license ou mistansa :(

yousef: ok bas bshar6

me: shnu ohwa??

yousef: terje3ein elbeit elsa3a 10 belthab6 *kissed her forehead*

i blushed:  ok yalla 7beebi bye

yousef: derebalich! ou derebalich 3ala ele eb ba6nch *-*

me: its only my third day of pregnancy haha bas latkhaf :*





BACK TO REALITY


me: ha shgaal yousef?

munera: retha bas i have to get back at 10 !

me: ugghhh :)

munera: shswi ba3ad ! now I'm married everything is different :( mu nafs gabl

me: 7ada ! zain now badge 3ala yasmeenu as2alha etha tabs tyeey wyana

munera: ok bye x

me: bye


I ended the call then called yasmeen straight away ..


RING

RING

RING


yasmeen: halla bel7uubb

me: halla wallah! kaif 7alek?

yasmeen: tamam wallah! entay kaif 7alek?

me: not bad!

yasmeen: good

me: guess what

yasmeen: what??

me: i got my license yesterday !! *screaaaaammmm*

yasmeen: OMG OMG OMG MABROUUUUUUUKKKKKKKK

me: allah ybarek feeich ya albeey

yasmeen: so el6al3a 3aalaich today then??

me: bess yalla libsay 30 minutes ana 3indch ba3dain nmer manouur

yasmeen: ok got to go then x

me: bye


I ended the call then i quickly got dressed in turquoise jeans with a white flowing shirt and gold accessories with gold spiked shoes. 
I left my hair down naturally curly, got my bag, CAR KEYS !! and phone and headed downstairs to tell my parents..




me: yummaaaaa

mom: halla?

me: ba6la3 wiya munera and yasmeen

mom: wain 3allalah?

me: elsoug wila shay, mara7 n6awel

mom: zein, 3endch flous?

me: eeh al7mdla! yalla lazm aru7 amrehum :*

mom: derebalich wgaflay beiban elsayara layft7unhm 3alaich 3yal el7r*m

me: LOOOOOOOOOLL ok mama, yalla bye :*

mom: ma3asalama allah y7fthch




I left the house and started walking to my baby waiting for me in the parking! Damn i can already feel the love between us!

I unlocked my mini cooper and got in and as soon as i did that, a strong smell of freshness came through my nose (like you know the smell of new paint, cars etc )!
I put the key through the car, fixed my mirrors and then put my seatbelt and put the gear on d and started driving! ( see I'm a good girl because i wear a seatbelt! you know just incase lol ) 
I turned on the radio and put 88.8 and on it was the song   وداعا ـ راشد الماجد 

Gosh i love this song! It just made me tear i don't know why :') 






After 20 minutes of driving and "living the moment" i reached yasmeen's house and i called her bas maradat 3alay so 6agait heren wila the house door opens and fahad comes out!

Great :) 


fahad: oh jazii mabrouuk

me: allah ybarek feik

fahad: muta 7a9altay 3al license?

me: ams

fahad: aha, shaklich tabeen yasmeen

me: eh

fahad: al7ein anadeha lich

me: thanks

fahad: mabeina *wink*


I faked a smile and started fiddling with my bb while fahad went inside 
After a while yasmeen came out


yasmeen: AYABAAAAHHHHHH

me: haha

yasmeen: mashallah eeh elgamal duh???

me: ana wila elcar?:$

yasmeen: elcar mu entay ::

me; WEH :)

yasmeen: mistansa?

me: 7aaaaiiiillll

yasmeen: 3asa ;)



I turned the car engine on and started driving to munera's flat


yasmeen: wallah jazouy mashallah 3alich swagtech zaina compared to the other beginner's

me: thanks! ba3ad tadreen i used to drive a lot men wana 14 :p

yasmeen: LOOOL ana 18 ou lel7in ma6ala3t license kaaaak :')

me: mescheeeina :(

yasmeen: 7ada! :(



We reached munera's house and then we went out to 360 to watch taken 2, after that we went to chills and starbucks alba7ar! Literally it was such an amazing day <3 
I love my friends i don't know what to do without them !


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When you're gone CHAPTER 46

After a while yasmeen came out of pink berry panicked because she didn't find me and saw me standing still in the middle of the parking//


yasmeen: umbaaih jaziii winch ga3adt adawrech!!!

me: you set this up didn't you?

yasmeen: haa??

me: ga3da as2elech !! You set this up didn't you?

yasmeen: set what up??

me: isn't it obvious ???!!! Your brother fahad being in pink berry and you going to the toilet because apparently you needed it! And leaving me alone with fahad!!!

yasmeen: but he made me do that....


I WAS FURIOUS BECAUSE SHE JUST MADE ME REMEMBER THE LOVELY PAST!



yasmeen: I'm sorry, i really am jazi! Wallah fahad told me to do this ana making abeich tshufena again cause i knew you would tear up and start crying wallah I'm sorry.

me: its ok :')

raja: enta bas ebche ebche sinu 7ayat mal enta??

yasmeen: raja  chub la box 3la wayhek al7eein!

raja: enta yabe ana alhein ytug enta w enazl men elsayara yalla ehtarmay nafsich wila ana yguul 7g baba mal jazi

yasmeen: yal7abeeib tara mu gam tkhawefne ;)

raja: enta laish vajid galeeil adab??

yasmeen: la2anik tistahel a7acheek chethi ya bu shanab hitler ! KAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAK


I cracked out and laughed so much Umbaaih jaad yasmeen changed my mood by saying that!


me: LOOOOOOOOOL OMG 7ARAAAM ='))

yasmeen: KAAAAAK wqassam bellah shanabek naaaar raja waaakkkkk

raja: enta humaar vajid sawi janjal w muskil ana mara7 ywde enta beit

yasmeen: mu bkeif omit ya ghabi

raja: e6la3 bara sayara alheein

yasmeen: no waayyyy

jazi: raja be quiet ou wadna yasmeen's house please bedun jinjal xd

yasmeen: yeah ;)

raja: JAIN :)










I dropped munera at her house and went back to mine so i could rest after this big day!

As soon as i arrived at my house i saw a grey mini cooper parked in our parking JUST LIKE THE ONE I WANTED! So i started wondering who the hell's car is it?? i mean who would be at my house at this time? or could it just be the neighbours? well i better go in and find out ;c


me: sallaaammm

mom&dad: wa3alaikum elsalam yabnayte

me; fe mini 9af6a bara baitna belparking malna.. malat minuu???

dad: malat eljeiran ohma kanaw ydawrun ma9fa6 w sa2lune etha ygdrun ya9f6un 3ndna wana wafaqt

me: oh. 3ad tyanen chnha el mini eele gitltilk abeeha ;p

dad: eeh adre

mom: bnayte bacher betru7en tswen emt7anch el liscence ?

me: eeh dad your taking me right??

dad: eeh

me: cool! GN 7ade ta3bana ;p





I slept and wokeup the next morning feeling very excited about my licence exam! I just hope i don't fail!



me: dad ana ready!!

dad: mataben reyuug??

me: emballah abi ashteri reyuug men mac!

dad: aku a7ad ytrayag mac??

me: eeh ana !!! ;p



We went to mac and i ordered breakfast takeaway and started eating it on the way!
After 15 minutes we reached the licence place and i got in, gave them my info, and waited for about 30 minutes till it was my turn ..

I'm kindoff not that scared because i know how to drive since i was 14 so 4 years of practicing will be much help for this day ! ;$

I got in the car with the examiner person  and then i put my seatbelt and started driving, i parked, i took you turns and there was also a roundabout which i had to go round 3 times :) 

Luckily i did well and guess what?
I PASSED WOHEEEEE :P !!



I got out, told my dad and he was very happy + proud of me and then we went to do the applications, and you know filling in lots of sheets just to get my licence and they said i'll receive it next week and for now they gave me a temporary card to use !







me: daad wnaasa i passed the exam!!  ay car bteshterelii???

dad: ni6ray wt3arfeen


We arrived at my house then both me and my dad got out of the car and then he pointed at the mini and i was like whaattf `;s???


me; shfeek yuba??

dad: hathe syartech!

me: e7lif?? :O

dad: wllah

me: OMG THANKYOOOOUU YUBAA I LOVE YOUUU !!!!

dad: al3afw 7beebti tistahlein


And for the rest of the day me and my family went out to celebrate hehe ;p





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When you're gone CHAPTER 45

Another month,

another year,

another smile,

another tear,

another winter and,

another summer too

and i? will always love you.

I miss you fahad.

The year passed by very quick and today is my 18th birthday




Me: manuur get ready bamerich wya elsayeg in 30 minutes 3shan enru7 B+F

munera: okay bas jazouy lan6awel 3shan yousef said at 10 lazem akuun raj3a elbait

me: ohh wayed mbacher !

munera: shswi I have to ba3ad I'm his wife mara7 yertha atakhar

me: okk



The bell rang


yasmeen: heeeyyyy birthday girl !!!!!!!!!

me: heey

yasmeen: happy birthday ya 7ilwaa enjoy itt !!

me: thankyouu i will cause you're with me ;p

yasmeen: awwh :$ btw hach ur present wila taben a36ech eyaha eb B+F

me: 3a6ene eyaha eb b+F

yasmeen: LOOOL okay!!

me: yalla emshay nru7 nmur manor

yasmeen: yalla

me: yalla 7arek raja

raja: jeein !


yasmeen: uhmm jazi fahad wishes you happy birthday and he says he loves you so much!

me: he does ? *shocked*

yasmeen: just because he broke up with you doesn't mean he can't stop loving you! And yes he does!

me: OMG *tearing* i love him too this actually made my day :') *tearing*

yasmeen hugged me and said: yalla mis7ay dmou3ech

me: okay *tearing* bas isn't there hope for us to get back together?? :')

yasmeen: no i don't think so.

me: ok :(


We arrived at munera's house after like 15 minutes and she came in the car with a huge smile on her face and me and yasmeen were just like what the hell :/

me: shfeech yam wayh?

munera: agulekum eb b+f

me: okaayy!!!!



The road was very crowded and me and the girls were just chatting about collage, university and etc ;c and after like 30 hours of being stuck in the traffic we reached 360!
We got in 360 w bdena nitmasha w 6ab3an munera kanat mndjmja b her phone t7ache 7abeeb galba w rayelha yousef :) ou me and yasmeen kina ga3ad nista3be6 3al ma7alat, even though were 18! Tara being 18 is COOOOOOOOL 
B-)  just saying. Ok don't worry.


We got in b+f and sat on the table ou 6ab3an i asked yasmeen t7ache elrayal eswili surprise birthday w 6ab3an ana bswe ru7e madre :$
We ordered our meals and chatted for a bit and 
then munera wanted to say something


munera: banaat sim3unee !!

me: halla?

munera: i've got some good news :$

me&yasmeen: shnuu?

munera: ana 7amil !!

Mine and yasmeen's face was :O !!!!!!!!!!!

me: OMGGG 7LFAAAAYYY???

munera: walllaahhhh!

yasmeen: OMG AY SHAY :O ?

munera: eeh wallah ana 7amil shfeekum !

me: OMGGGG mabrouuuuuuuuk ilove yoouuu manouuur yetraba b3ezkum enshalllaahh!!

munera: enshallah!

yasmeen: waaaay wnasaa your gonna be a mom soon !!

munera: 7addaa i can't freaking wait bas khayfa !

me: 7beebii manor :( don't worry everything will be alright :***

yasmeen: eeh manoura latkhafeen enshallah hal 9 ashhur ymeruun bser3a

munera: enshalla

me: manor don't you think you're to young for this? i mean your 18 ;p

munera: eeh i am bas everything happened quickly ;p

me: hmm yalla enshallah elwakt your bser3a wtoulden wt9er bnya wtsmeenha 3alay :$

yasmeen: la tsameenha 3alay!!

munera: keep dreaming 7baybe



B+f workers:  BOO!!! HAPPPY BIRTHDAY JAZI !! May all your wishes come true !


MY face went red and i said: thankyoouu guys :$

Yasmeen and munera gave my my presents and after that we ate the chocolate cake then we had to go back and take munera cause she can't be late :l yousef mayertha :) !

We dropped her off at her house then yasmeen 7anat 3alay enruu7 pink berry so we went there and as soon as we arrived, we ordered the frozen yoghurts wila inshuuuf ...





































FAHAD



yasmeen: hey bro

fahad: hey sis ;) , jazi you didn't ask me how i am ;p?

me: how are you?O_O

fahad: tamam

me: doum O_O

fahad: damat ayamich, entay shlunech?

me: not bad O_O

fahad: 3assa ;**


I smiled :D !





yasmen: uhhmm baruu7 el7amaam because I'm desperate and you know ;)

fahad: yeah yeah go go yasuum ;)




I gave her a death stare ena ana a3amech :)






fahad: jazi i miss you!! wel9ara7a ana 7ail ta3ban bedunich...

me: fahad you're the one who wanted us to break up it was all your decision, ou 7asbalik i don't miss you??

fahad: i know you miss me, i know its my fault I'm sorry

me: tara i have feelings too w you're not the only one tired! I am too

fahad: mu beedi entay tadreen!!

me: the only flipping thing i know is that you can't refuse what your dad told you and to be honest i think thats stupid! 9bay sh6oulek sh3erthek mategdar tarfeth ele ygoula lik obouk

fahad: ba3ad obouy jazi shtabeeni asawi !!!! Entay bas t3arefay 3al bint wallah khoush wa7da !

me: I DONT WANT TO MEET THE GIRL YOU'RE GETTING MARRIED TO *tearing* MALI SHEGHEL FEEHA !! YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED TO HER KAIFEK ITS YOUR BUISSNES NOT MINE I DONT CARE ALLAH YWAFGEK !!!!!

fahad: ameein..



Tears started flowing down my face like a river but i managed to wipe them and walk of leaving fahad siting down, but as i was walking i heard fahad shout my name
so i turned around...


me: what do you want ba3ad???? Mu kafe ele sweita feni! *tearing* YOU BROKE MY HEART!

fahad: jazi I'm sorry, forgive me please

me: why should i? *tearing*

fahad: you know i love you, and you know you love me too! PLEASE

me: sama7tek

fahad: I'm so sorry jazi

me: Its ok fahad! I managed to live a year without you, so i can manage living my whole life without you, its not a big deal, yeah its tough but i managed it and i always will

fahad; i promise that i love you no matter what jazi! I really do.

me: And you know i do too :') *tearing*







I am heartbroken, i am sad, i am lonely, but i guess that that's what's meant to happen to me, I guess that if me and fahad were still together something bad might've happened so its better how we are now, i guess that the true meaning of love doesn't exist and what i was in, was a (fake dream) that looked like reality the whole time.
Maybe fahad will have a better life with his new wife soon and maybe i'll just live my life the way it is, but don't forget that i've still got a long way to go and god knows how many unopened secrets and wonders are out there waiting for me, so i'm going to keep living my life with my head up high proud of everything that happened to me because life is like a test for us, and every person that comes into our life teaches  us a lesson.
It does hurt being alone without fahad but always remember nothing stays forever right?

I know fahad still loves me and i know he's still in pain but time will pass and he'll get over me soon, like i did.

I will love him till forever dies, It's a promise.


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