Another month,
another year,
another smile,
another tear,
another winter and,
another summer too
and i? will always love you.
I miss you fahad.
The year passed by very quick and today is my 18th birthday
Me: manuur get ready bamerich wya elsayeg in 30 minutes 3shan enru7 B+F
munera: okay bas jazouy lan6awel 3shan yousef said at 10 lazem akuun raj3a elbait
me: ohh wayed mbacher !
munera: shswi I have to ba3ad I'm his wife mara7 yertha atakhar
me: okk
The bell rang
yasmeen: heeeyyyy birthday girl !!!!!!!!!
me: heey
yasmeen: happy birthday ya 7ilwaa enjoy itt !!
me: thankyouu i will cause you're with me ;p
yasmeen: awwh :$ btw hach ur present wila taben a36ech eyaha eb B+F
me: 3a6ene eyaha eb b+F
yasmeen: LOOOL okay!!
me: yalla emshay nru7 nmur manor
yasmeen: yalla
me: yalla 7arek raja
raja: jeein !
yasmeen: uhmm jazi fahad wishes you happy birthday and he says he loves you so much!
me: he does ? *shocked*
yasmeen: just because he broke up with you doesn't mean he can't stop loving you! And yes he does!
me: OMG *tearing* i love him too this actually made my day :') *tearing*
yasmeen hugged me and said: yalla mis7ay dmou3ech
me: okay *tearing* bas isn't there hope for us to get back together?? :')
yasmeen: no i don't think so.
me: ok :(
We arrived at munera's house after like 15 minutes and she came in the car with a huge smile on her face and me and yasmeen were just like what the hell :/
me: shfeech yam wayh?
munera: agulekum eb b+f
me: okaayy!!!!
The road was very crowded and me and the girls were just chatting about collage, university and etc ;c and after like 30 hours of being stuck in the traffic we reached 360!
We got in 360 w bdena nitmasha w 6ab3an munera kanat mndjmja b her phone t7ache 7abeeb galba w rayelha yousef :) ou me and yasmeen kina ga3ad nista3be6 3al ma7alat, even though were 18! Tara being 18 is COOOOOOOOL
B-) just saying. Ok don't worry.
We got in b+f and sat on the table ou 6ab3an i asked yasmeen t7ache elrayal eswili surprise birthday w 6ab3an ana bswe ru7e madre :$
We ordered our meals and chatted for a bit and
then munera wanted to say something
munera: banaat sim3unee !!
me: halla?
munera: i've got some good news :$
me&yasmeen: shnuu?
munera: ana 7amil !!
Mine and yasmeen's face was :O !!!!!!!!!!!
me: OMGGG 7LFAAAAYYY???
munera: walllaahhhh!
yasmeen: OMG AY SHAY :O ?
munera: eeh wallah ana 7amil shfeekum !
me: OMGGGG mabrouuuuuuuuk ilove yoouuu manouuur yetraba b3ezkum enshalllaahh!!
munera: enshallah!
yasmeen: waaaay wnasaa your gonna be a mom soon !!
munera: 7addaa i can't freaking wait bas khayfa !
me: 7beebii manor :( don't worry everything will be alright :***
yasmeen: eeh manoura latkhafeen enshallah hal 9 ashhur ymeruun bser3a
munera: enshalla
me: manor don't you think you're to young for this? i mean your 18 ;p
munera: eeh i am bas everything happened quickly ;p
me: hmm yalla enshallah elwakt your bser3a wtoulden wt9er bnya wtsmeenha 3alay :$
yasmeen: la tsameenha 3alay!!
munera: keep dreaming 7baybe
B+f workers: BOO!!! HAPPPY BIRTHDAY JAZI !! May all your wishes come true !
MY face went red and i said: thankyoouu guys :$
Yasmeen and munera gave my my presents and after that we ate the chocolate cake then we had to go back and take munera cause she can't be late :l yousef mayertha :) !
We dropped her off at her house then yasmeen 7anat 3alay enruu7 pink berry so we went there and as soon as we arrived, we ordered the frozen yoghurts wila inshuuuf ...
FAHAD
yasmeen: hey bro
fahad: hey sis ;) , jazi you didn't ask me how i am ;p?
me: how are you?O_O
fahad: tamam
me: doum O_O
fahad: damat ayamich, entay shlunech?
me: not bad O_O
fahad: 3assa ;**
I smiled :D !
yasmen: uhhmm baruu7 el7amaam because I'm desperate and you know ;)
fahad: yeah yeah go go yasuum ;)
I gave her a death stare ena ana a3amech :)
fahad: jazi i miss you!! wel9ara7a ana 7ail ta3ban bedunich...
me: fahad you're the one who wanted us to break up it was all your decision, ou 7asbalik i don't miss you??
fahad: i know you miss me, i know its my fault I'm sorry
me: tara i have feelings too w you're not the only one tired! I am too
fahad: mu beedi entay tadreen!!
me: the only flipping thing i know is that you can't refuse what your dad told you and to be honest i think thats stupid! 9bay sh6oulek sh3erthek mategdar tarfeth ele ygoula lik obouk
fahad: ba3ad obouy jazi shtabeeni asawi !!!! Entay bas t3arefay 3al bint wallah khoush wa7da !
me: I DONT WANT TO MEET THE GIRL YOU'RE GETTING MARRIED TO *tearing* MALI SHEGHEL FEEHA !! YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED TO HER KAIFEK ITS YOUR BUISSNES NOT MINE I DONT CARE ALLAH YWAFGEK !!!!!
fahad: ameein..
Tears started flowing down my face like a river but i managed to wipe them and walk of leaving fahad siting down, but as i was walking i heard fahad shout my name
so i turned around...
me: what do you want ba3ad???? Mu kafe ele sweita feni! *tearing* YOU BROKE MY HEART!
fahad: jazi I'm sorry, forgive me please
me: why should i? *tearing*
fahad: you know i love you, and you know you love me too! PLEASE
me: sama7tek
fahad: I'm so sorry jazi
me: Its ok fahad! I managed to live a year without you, so i can manage living my whole life without you, its not a big deal, yeah its tough but i managed it and i always will
fahad; i promise that i love you no matter what jazi! I really do.
me: And you know i do too :') *tearing*
I am heartbroken, i am sad, i am lonely, but i guess that that's what's meant to happen to me, I guess that if me and fahad were still together something bad might've happened so its better how we are now, i guess that the true meaning of love doesn't exist and what i was in, was a (fake dream) that looked like reality the whole time.
Maybe fahad will have a better life with his new wife soon and maybe i'll just live my life the way it is, but don't forget that i've still got a long way to go and god knows how many unopened secrets and wonders are out there waiting for me, so i'm going to keep living my life with my head up high proud of everything that happened to me because life is like a test for us, and every person that comes into our life teaches us a lesson.
It does hurt being alone without fahad but always remember nothing stays forever right?
I know fahad still loves me and i know he's still in pain but time will pass and he'll get over me soon, like i did.
I will love him till forever dies, It's a promise.
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