I woke up the next day feeling so energetic and happy ! Its just so crazy how this year went by so quick i'm so excited but also scared of what the future holds..
I got out of my bed, went to the toilet and had a shower, brushed my teeth and did everything!
Then i went downstairs and ate breakfast with my parents, after that i rushed upstairs and started straightening my hair which was taking me ages so i decided to call my maid to do it instead ..
me shouting: ROSE COME AND DO MY HAIR !!!!!!!
rose came in running: what what??
me: do my hair pleaaasse my hands hurt me i can't do it anymore !
rose: okaayyy!!
She did my hair and after like an hour of sitting still and not moving she finished straightening my hair!
me: finally!!
I cried for about half an hour to find an outfit bas ashwa my mom helped me so i chose to wear this..
I wore a white vest under so my back wouldn't show
and i wore these shoes..
I applied a simple layer of eye liner, mascara, some blusher and applied some red lipstick.
me: mama , dad I'm ready!!!
dad: yah yah shhal kashkha!
mom: smile 3alaich ya bnayte 9ayra gumar :*
me: tislemuun <3
mom&dad: allah ysalmich
We got in the car and whole ride i was just chatting with fahad on bbm!
me: fahaadd!!
fahad: halla babe??
me: I'm omw to the graduation 7ade scared and nervous!
fahad: baby its going to be ok don't worry :*
me: I'm so happy bas madre i just have this weird feeling i just can't describe it :(
fahad: 3adee jazouya its going to be amazing trust me i experienced it don't forget ;p
me: how did you feel laman you were standing belstage tan6er elshahada??
fahad: kint mitwater shway bas as soon as elmudeer 3a6ane elshahada 7asait b shu3uur khayal! 9ara7a 7aseeit I'm free !
me: allah wnasa :(
fahad: don't be afraid you will enjoy every moment you spend in the graduation :*
me: inshalla i hope! btw fahad your coming to the graduation cause of your sister yasmeen right?
fahad: yup I'm omw to the hotel yasmeen and my parents 9bigounii
me: ohh okay take care please!
fahad: enshallah :**
me: byee x
fahad: bye
And after a blink of an eye i found my self standing right outside the movenpick hotel!
dad: yalla nizlay jazi
me: okay sorry mantebaht! I was day dreaming ;p
mom: yalla yuma 3shan matit2akhirain!
me: ok
We got in the hotel and then we asked the man where was the graduation and it was in the king lounge so we walked till we got in!
And thats when i saw every pupil from my school sitting and chatting! Smiling and laughing! The place looks exciting and i started feeling so happy !
yasmeen: omgg heeyyyy !!
me: heeyyy!
yasmeen: You look gorgeous ya kalba !!!
me: awwh :$! you too wallahh!! :*
yasmeen: 7beebti :*! btw shlounech??
me: tamam wallah ;p
yasmeen: duum!
me: damat ayamech
Then my mom interrupted us,
mom: yuma ana wbouch benrou7 neg3ad ok?
me: eeh okay mama!
Me and yasmeen went and sat in our seats! I had to go and sit where my class was and yasmeen had to sit where her class was! And i felt like every moment was going slow till they said my class's name! And now its time for us to receive our certificates !
Everyone got up to get their certificate, person by person would stand up till it was my turn.
They called out my name..
teacher: JAZI AL*****
Thats when everyone started clapping! The noise echoed everywhere and all i knew was that every step i was taking closer to where the teachers was standing was making me shake, i felt so dizzy but i quickly managed to get there and my head teacher salam 3ley and gave me my certificate and i took a picture with him and thats when i saw my mom crying her eyes out and my dad videoing me! And fahad? he was smiling the whole time.<3
teacher: would you like to say anything jazi?
me: umm yes. I just want to say a big thank you for all the teachers and for their help all these years and also i would like to thank my parents for supporting me through all this journey and for being there for me whenever i needed them and that I'm very proud of being part of that school, and thank you.
Everyone clapped and both my mom and dad stood up for me and so did all my friends specially manur<3
I went back to my seat and suddenly
munera whispered: you were amazing up there i love you<3
me: thanks manor i adore you wallah<33 uhmm btw jassoum ukhuch ga3ed ekhzne!!
munera: oh okay 3yal stop talking to me sway ru7ech m3a9ba 3ley zein!
me: ok
Every one got their certificates and the teachers and the students said all their speeches then it was food time..
My phone vibrated so i quickly checked it..
fahad: PING!!!
me: halla fahad??
fahad: come outside abi akalmech!!
Thats creepy...
me: ok.
I told my parents i was going to the toilet *lie* then i went to see fahad outside!
I started walking till i saw fahad..
me: hey fahad?
fahad: halla jazi
me: so shnu tabey ;p??
fahad: tadrein you were shining on that stage?
me: a7em :$
fahad: your so beautiful :* just like every time bas elyoum 9ayra very very beautiful !!!
me: thanks fahad you do too ;p
fahad: your welcome! ha shloun shu3urech now?
me: 7adeey 7adeey happy !!!!
fahad: enshallah doom :*
me: damat ayamek! x
fahad: so now your graduated magelteli which university betru7ein?
me: madre wallah wedi adres bara!!
fahad: wish you luck!
me: thanks!! uhmm fahad is anything wrong??
fahad: yes !!! fe shay lazim agoula!!
me: shinu shfek fahad?? tell me whats wrong baby ?
fahad: jazi i ..
fahad: i don't think we can continue in our relationship I'm sorry bas my dad ligale bnaya w i have to marry her because she's very close to my family I'm sorry...
me: WHATTTT?????????? YOUR FLIPPING JOKING RIGHT????? AY SHAY 9A7!!!?
fahad: no I'm not joking sorry jazi !
me: you can say no its easy !!!!!!!! Don't you love me???
fahad: i can't reject my dad.. i do love you jazi bas I'm sorry lazim a6ei3 obouy !!!
me: i hate you for making me love you all this time! It turned out you are like all the other boys. A player! and i? i was just a toy to you !!! Thanks so much for being such an amazing person in my life fahad !!!!!!!!!!!!
fahad: I'm sorry jazi wallah i love you! I would appreciate it if you're there for me ..
me: you break my heart and you expect me to come to see you getting married to another girl and seeing her calling you Her's?? Im sorry but thats impossible
fahad: it would be great if you did come! Im sorry but i have to go now, bye.
This can't be happening right??? all my dreams shattered in pieces when fahad told me he's getting married to another girl! I can't believe after all that time fahad isn't marrying me! This is just nonsense i just can't take it anymore! I f*cking trust too much! I trusted fahad and now he broke me! Im sick of all of this! I've loved fahad with all my heart! Everyday i would love him even more, every moment i speak with him i smile! The future chats that me and him talked about all shattered when he said he's not mine anymore! But its fine ! Its alright, its ok ! I'll be so much better without him. Maybe someday.
I wiped my tears away and went inside to the lounge where everyone was, i sat eating silently till my parents said we had to go and all the way my parents were talking about the graduation and i was silent, just thinking about fahad.
And as soon as we arrived to my house i ran upstairs, locked my self in the room, changed to my pi's and played the song Its alright, its ok by ashley tisdale! I know its old But i always thought this strong was strong and now? it just describes how i feel.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wJWA4nqi650
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