The past and the future. Chapter 4

School finished and i headed to mac to buy lunch and when i finished ordering i turned around to find hamad standing right behind me! He saw me and smiled 7tan 7sait kan yabe ykalmne but there was people so nzalt rase and i smiled then i bit my lips from shines.
Madre laish est7aait 7aail cause its the first time i've ever seen hamad bil9ij ou it wasn't planned x$.

Anyways...

I took my order and headed back home and when i opened my whatsapp i found a message from hamad.


hamad: 3ash minshafich 3umree ;***

me: 7bebe 3ashat ayamik :$

hamad: a7la 9idfa wrabe <3

me: hehe :$




The rest of the week nothing important happened and today is thursday finally after waiting for ages!!


me: sarouuuuunnnnn

sara: haaa way3a ya zag shtabeen

me: abi agoulich shay tharouure yalla mrene khanrouu7 360

sara: ga3da albes akhale9 wyeech ana ou dana

me: zainnn


Let me describe sara: Quite tall, mtbtba shway, beitha, but she's pretty and she's 13 years old kubre ya3ne bas ana akbar menha eb 5 days :$
She's my cousin and my bff at the same time, she's the sister i never had<3



And Dana is sara's sis, she's 17 a senior and she's really thin, she has same skin colour as saroun and she has a pretty smile and a pretty face too.
I'm quite close to dana too.



BEEEBBPP
BEEEEEPP




sara: fuck u ya zag e7na bara

me: okay kane nazla latsben ya wa9kha

sara: chubb

me: u chub kanee



Lebast 7jabe bser3a ou khathait flous men ome told her bye and went down.


me: halla bel cousins eljameleein

dana; halla walla

sara: fuck u laish t2akhereen

me: laish tsbeen??

dana: huff ge6a3 lsanha wa9ekhh

sara: nafsich yal ...

me: khlaa9 eklaw kharakoum

dana: yalla kumar rou7 360

me: mama gouuul??

sara: EHH MAMA GOUUUL


me: enzain sm3aw tara 3endi bf esma hamad and i told them the story from A to Z

sara: cuuttee

dana: 7aail bas meme entay tawich 13 y3ne 9ghera 3ala halswalef

sara: 3daal entay a9lan entay lama kntay kuberna kan 3endich bf ou kach lail7enich wyaah ashuf bas entay 3ade haa

dana: ana ghair la2ana ana abdullah byetzwajne !!

me and sara; EEH KHAIR ENSHALLA KAAAAAK

dana: klaaab

me: tara hamad sounds serious y3ne he promised he would NEVER leave me ou he would marry me :$

dana: inshalla maye6la3 chathab

me: ou 3la fekra byee 360 yabe yshufne bas ana gtla men b3eed lay b3eed a7san

dana: eeh 7ail




We arrived and booked cinema tickets to GI-JOE and when the movie was over we sat on the tables near fridays and hamad whatsapped me telling me that he is gonna come now y3ne bemer chena 3ade bas bkhzne :$


hamad: ha baby ana kane yam Dslush byee 3end el6awlat abeich tkounen ga3da jdame mu ma36eytne thahrech

me: okay



me: umbaaih a7is khayfaa!!!

sara: laishh

dana: 7da laish khu entay mentay ga3da wyaah bas bt6al3oun ba3ath men b3eed

me: umbaaih kahuu!!!!


I quickly looked at him but then nazalt rasey bser3a cause 7sait ina est7aait 7aail!!! wmarefa3t rase ela lama i saw hamad going away.



me: umbeeh fashla laish nzalt rasee

dana: 7daaa

sara: ur boyfriend jaiikaar sim7ele

dana: eeh i agree

me; chub bas ou 3daal entay 7beebich eljameel ya dana


We went and ate in fridays then we finished and went to alnuzha co-op and then to sara and dana's house cause i was sleeping over!!


me: banat ana mwa3da shahoud bacher ba6la3 wyaha shlouun ra7at 3an baley :(

sara: ba6la3 wyakouuumm please

me: zzaain agoulaha




me: shahouudd

shahad: halla babe?

me: bacher saroou tabe t6la3 wyana 3ade

shahad: eeh 3ade babe i never say no :*



Let me describe shahad: she's 19, short 7ail, chubby with chubby cheeks bas 7ail mamlou7a ou beitha and mit7ajba.
I became her friend from twitter even though my parents knew her parents from a long time bas we recently became friends and even though shahad akbar mene bwayedd ela ena she always tells me tafkeery tafkeer w7da  3ouda :$ Shahad is very wise i love her 7ail she's like the big sister i never had


sara: ha shgalat??

me: galat okay

dana: ouushh  3abouud bedig

me: tkfaain basmaa33

dana: t3alay yame

sara: fuck u thnainatkoum ana barou7 anam bacher bg3douna mbacher 7g elzwara

me: LSANICH!! ka shway ou yaya yal3eshg ;)




So abdullah is dana's bf from 4 years i think and yeah i heard their phone call then was going to sleep when hamad whatsapped me


hamad: 7yate you looked hot today!!!!

me: hehe thankyouu :$

hamad: nzain 7yate brou7 eldwanya akalmich b3dain

me: i'm gonna sleep anyways night :*

hamad: a7bichhhh

me: wana ba3ad x

The past and the future. Chapter 3

I woke up and headed to the toilet to do my things, prayed and then checked my phone to find a lot of bbm messages, mentions and MSN notifications ugh.



Hamad: hey maryam shlounich 3sa fakartay??

maryam: tmaam, eeh fakart


NO mafakartay maryam why did you lie and say that you stupid cow !! now what am i gonna say puff


hamad: so do you wanna be my girl?

me: uhmm yeah..



NO NO NO NO why did i say that now ? I just got myself into something i can't get out of yarabe now i'm gonna be his gf and this is so bad, so so bad..



hamad: mane m9adeg!!! entay 7agey al7een fahma wila la?

me: okay okay calm down hamad i'm yours lat7atee lol ;p

hamad: call me hamouudy, hamada bas 3ad dl3ene 3ad :$

me: enshalla hamoudy :$

hamad: yakhe ylomoune laish a7bich

me: ast7ii :$

hamad: fdaait ele yist7ouun ;**

me: fdak elkoun :$






So yeah i am hamad's girlfriend now, i'm 13 as i've mentioned before and yes i know i'm too young for this bullshit but sometimes i think that i kinda had to do this! Don't judge a book by its cover like if you don't know me then just read this and maybe you'll understand why i decided to be hamad's gf.

You see, i never got the enough love and attention from my parents and so hamad kind of made me feel what it would be to have someone who cares about you and loves you.

You will just fully understand if you were in my shoes..




hamad: 7beebti meme

me: 3younha

hamad: 7yate khansoulef whatsapp a7san

me: okay my number 99******

hamad: mine is 60******

hamad: halla b7yate tawa ma nawar elwhatsapp

me: bwjoudek 7yate :$

hamad:  7yate 3ade etdzele your pic?

me: hah??? hmm no mabe akhaf matms7ha

hamad: afaa!!! shnu 7yate mu wathqa feeni??

me: emballa bas ya3ne i'm afraid

hamad: wallah bas dgeega bashufha b3den bams7hha

me: okay        *Picture sent*

hamad: shhal jamal??

me: madre :$, enzain 7amoudy emsa7 el9oura please

hamad: okay 7yate ms7t"ha

me: goul walla

hamad: wallah! enzain 7ube abi ashuf 9ourtech bdoun 7jab?

me: no hamad 3aaib shloun ana mit7ajba!!

hamad: shnu 3aib??? shfeech ana batzawijech ya3ne 3ade

me: lama tkha6bne b3deen shufne bdoun 7jab

hamad: yalla 3ad 7yate ana bas atkharaj men el madresa baakalim ahale 3anech ya3ne ana bs attkharj men eljam3a intay tkouneen makh6ouba ley

me: 9ijjj?? :$

hamad: eeh walllah 7ube

me: khala9 bdezlik 9oura bas ems7ha 3ad zain

hamad: enshallah ya murte elmstqbleya w om 3yale  ;)

me: :$    *picture sent*

hamad: hathe entay??? la mani m9adig !

me: walla hathe ana :$

hamad: 9AROUUUKHH WRABE !!!

me: men thouqik!!:$

hamad: 7beebti entay *.*

me: yalla 7yate banam tmw school

hamad: la 3aad masheba3t menech

me: bteshba3 meney lat7ate ;p yalla goodnight

hamad: goodnight baby love you :*

me: me too :$






I slept that night feeling beyond great and i woke up the next day got dressed up prayed and did everything and went to school with a wide smile on my face


noura: OHHBB OHHBB sh3endich shaga elebtisama men 9ba7 allah khair

me: wla shay bas tethakart shay ytha7ek ;p

noura: 3alaina 3alaina

me: chub


Let me describe noura: Long dark brown hair with light brown eyes and a tanned skin, quite tall with a pretty cute baby face and she's 13.


noura: ya zag goulay el9ij!!

me: i have a bf !!

noura: omg 7ilfay?

me: wallah

noura: mane m9adga maryouum

me: shocking 9a7!?

noura: umbaih laykoun its the hamad guy ele men ask ou twitter

me: eeh ohwa

noura: umbaaih meme mahagait you would ever have a bf in your life inlay 7adich mu chethi!!!

me: nourow entay tadreen how my dad treats me at home!! ma7isah y7ibne ya3ne he never cares bas yzif w la kil ma6ala3t wyaah ygoule shay ybachene ou 7asouun ukhuuy bas y6ig wyt7rash ma'ahema

noura: just because inlay meftaqda 7naan wla 7ub doesn't mean you should have a boyfriend

me: bas hamad be3aweth what is missing

noura: all i'm gonna say maryam is that itha hamad 9ij y7ibich then byeey ykha6bech

me: ou thats what he's gone do!!

noura: benshouf

me: noura you're mad?:(

noura: no I'm not you have your own life and you should make your own decisions ana mu lazm atdakhal w its okay i know who you are adre you won't do bad things with him

me: 6ab3an ya3ne shbasawe ;p

noura: etdzela 9warech

me: uhhmm yeah well about that..

noura: OMG meme maynouuuna??? laish dzetela 9warech!!!

me: ushh ftha7tene tara were in school!!!!

noura: walla shaklich entay btfthe7en 3umrech mu ana!! ya3ne shdrach ena mesa7 elpic

me: he captured the album and it was clear

noura: omg jad be careful meme thats all i'm gonna say

me: i will don't worry.

The past and the future. Chapter 2

I got a mention from @hamadalflane ...

it said " follow back please? "

i clicked on his profile and stopped to think whether to follow him or not! Hmm well he kinda seems nice so i followed him, and after only 2 minutes i got a dm from him..


@hamadalflane: hey

@memealflane (me): hey..

@hamadalflane: shlounich?

@memealflane: bkhair al7mdla, you?

@hamadalflane: douum enshallah, ana bkhair damich bkhair ;**

@memealflane: damat ayamik and thank you :*

@hamadalflane: nn ;**


We spent like an hour talking and i found out a lot about him and for sure he found out a lot about me too :p


@hamadalflane: enzain meme ;p


Haw shaku ynadene meme 7asasne ena y3rfne men sneein 7mdela wlsheker :/


@memealflane: halla?

@hamadalflane: 3ade nsoulef whatsapp?

@memealflane: no !! sorry i can't hamad

@hamadalflane: laish!

@memealflane: bas 7da mu nou3en a36e raqme to a boy wsoulef wyah whatsapp

@hamadalflane: enzain ay mukan thane nsoulef feeh??

@memealflane: hmmm MSN?

@hamadalflane: oulllaaaahh shqedma el MSN akraha!! malegaitay ela MSN

@memealflane: wallah kaifek hamad matabe MSN nsoulef dm's bas

@hamadalflane: khala9 oki my email hamouuud34@hotmail.com

@memealflane: mine is pinkcupcake@hotmail.com

@hamadalflane: emailech 9arouuuuukkkhhhhhhh

@memealflane: lol i made it when i was 10!!:$ ou a9lan 3dal emailik enta

@hamadalflane: LOOL okay lat3a9ben 7ajiya lets get adding




So we added each other MSN and started chatting.

My habit everyday became talking to hamad and all i think about is him and i even dream about him gosh i really don't know whats wrong with me, but i don't know i always felt so amazing when i talked to him a7is he made me feel so special ou lama yes'al 3ane ou lama ygoule whether to do something or not to do...


I just feel that i'm attached to him now and hmm well i might have a crush on him?...


Days passed and all i ever do is talk to hamad and one day he said..


hamad: maryam

me: halla??

hamad: bagoulich shay bas don't get mad wila shay u have to wait till the end okay?

me: okay?

My heart started beating so fast and i felt so scared of what he's gonna say!

I'm sure you girls reading this will agree with me when ur in this situation :p



hamad: i love you! since the first time we started talking en3ijabt fetch w 7baitech wallah ine mu ga3ed age9 3laaich w meste3ed aswi ay shay 3shan t9dgene wallah

me: uhmbaih madre shagoul...

hamad: wallah 9dgene a7bich w ana shareich w abeich w meste3ed abe3 elkoun 3shanech

me: uhmm hamad madre itha ana a7is bnafs sh3ourek bas madre afaker waredlek khabar

hamad: okay..

me: goodnight

hamad: goodnight baby *.*




So i stayed in bed thinking whether to be hamad's gf or not!! bas ya3ne umbaih i"m a clean girl, i never talked to any guys in my life whatsoever and my parents are strict 7ail ou i really don't wanna loose their trust!! and this whole relationship would be totally 7aram!


But yet again hamad is so amazing and he just makes me feel so amazing ya3ne he cares so much.


ahhhh i really don't know!! I'll sleep now ou when i wakeup e9eer khair....

The past and the future. Chapter 1

Hey guys iam back with a new story!! And i hope you will like it



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...: entay? NAAARR

Me: ast7ii :$

....: maryouma 7beebti akalmech ba3dain obouy byakheth telephoney

Me: shnu hatha hamad!! Enta walad shkubrek sh6oulik obouk yakheth menek ur phone!!!

Hamad: ba3ad shasawy 7beebti! Enshalla ana mta magedart ra7 abouga wakalmech okay baby?

Me: okay!!





for those who hadn't worked it out yet, well hamad is maryams boyfriend.


Maryam (me) is 13, mit7ajba, medium height but not too tall, sunkissed with pretty eyes.

Hamad (maryam's bf ) is 15, 6weel, white skinned and wears glasses.










Let me tell you how this all started...

I was on my ask.fm when a new question popped up so i clicked on it and i think it said how old are you? With a name * hamad alflane *

So i answered the question saying " im 13 "

After 5 minutes this guy hamad started asking me lots and lots of questions and then i started asking him too.
But before i logged out of my ask i found a new question so i clicked on it and it said " whats ur twitter? " with the name *hamad alflane*

I answered it without hesitating " @memealflane "




I then logged out and clicked on my twitter and started tweeting and retweeting till i suddenly got a mention from............

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Hey guys i hoped you liked todays post i know its short bas im typing this from the ipad and its so 

annoying but yeah i would love to have feedback and thankyouu xx

Mistakes

Heey guys i am back!! and just wanna say that i missed you alot and i'm so for dissappearing well i thought i no more wanted to blog but i wanted to be back so yeaah!!



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For sure everyone of you guys had made mistakes, i mean we're all humans and every human makes a mistake.
It was one thing to make a mistake; it was another thing to keep making it and well, we all make mistakes, so just put it behind you. We should regret our mistakes and learn from them, but never carry them forward into the future with us.

Uhhm and well sometimes we fall into doing bad things but then something happens to teach us a lesson about what we did. Whoever is reading this might agree with me cause anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new.

When you find your path, you must not be afraid. You need to have the enough courage to make mistakes. I mean disappointment, defeat, and despair are the tools God uses to show us the way whenever we are going the wrong way.

Oh and one more thing! It is important that we forgive ourselves for making mistakes. We need to learn from our errors and move on and just because we make mistakes doesnt mean were evil, bad or whatever...

Sometimes.. (short poem)

Heey guyss!! I havent wrote a post in ages so i decided to write a short poem to entertain the bored ones :p


There you go ..
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Sometimes i feel like i hate my life,

Sometimes i feel that i'm usless,

Sometimes i feel that i need to rest from everything,

Sometimes i feel like i need someone to be there for me,

Sometimes i feel like crying my heart out,

Sometimes i feel like i'm lonely and sometimes i feel like hugging any random person and telling them everything i'm hiding,

Sometimes i feel like i make too much mistakes,

Sometimes i feel like closing my eyes and rising,
Rising up to where the blue skies and clouds are,

But i know that i was made to be in this life to try the rough and tough things cause life is just a short exam that were doing and sooner or later it'll end.

Me ... ( short post )

hey guys, how are you? i hope you're doing well! I miss writing so much so i decided to write a short random post, and yeah i'm doing that instead of doing my homework's but i prefer writing a post so yeah hehe !xx



Enjoy

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Well where can i start?

I'm just an ordinary teenage girl who's trying to live her life,
I may not be perfect, but i'm always me! and plus nobody's perfect right?
I make mistakes! But who doesn't?
I can be jealous at sometimes but its only because if something is meant to be mine, then it has to be mine,
i'm not a kind of stubborn person, i'm actually quite peaceful,
i hate arguing and i hate fights,
i'm bubbly and i laugh whenever i get the chance to, 
i try to smile as much as i can, cause this life's to short to be sad and frown about anything,
i may not be the prettiest but i believe that everyone is beautiful in their own way.
I know for sure that i'm not the best but i'm definite that i'm not like the rest.