The past and the future. Chapter6

shahad: mu men 9ijech meme???

me: wallah al3athem!!

shahad: i've always thought you had one bas madre laish gelt la that's just a feeling

me: wallah you may think i'm a sl*t and a b**h or whatever bad word but wallah ana mu qa9de for a bad way !! ya3ne i love hamad jadd ou he will marry me !

shahad: cham 3umra ?

me: 15..

shahad: umbaaaih meme both of you yahaaaall!!!

me: no were not !

shahad; chub asshole you're 13 and he's 15 umbaaih walak ohwa 3enda shanab a9lan? =)) KAAAAK

me: eeeh ya zaga he does chub lat3aybeen!!!!

shahad; listen babe, i know how you feel i was in your place a few years ago ya3ne i've always wanted someone to care for me, love me, and make me feel like i'm the only girl in the world! Bas i never had a bf! cause its totally wrong and plus meme always remember that الخبيثون للخبيثات والطيبون للطيبات

me: shnu ya3ne ana khabeeitha!!

shahad: no babe bas ya3ne ina the meaning of what i said is basically elnas ele ykalmouun wyel3ebouun lama yetzawejoun byakhthouun nas mu zaineen !! Ou ele maykalmoun wyetzawejoun wohma nthaf ou clear from suwalef elkhrabee6 will live a happy life with great people you know?

me: but what if hamad married me!

shahad: meme he won't! He's just playing around with youu

me: shdrach!!

shahad: i know wallah all boys are players

me; hmm okay

shahad: adre ma3jebach kalame bas hatha el9ij just remember what i said   الخبيثون للخبيثات والطيبون للطيبات


me: ok thanks shosh

shahad; no need babe


I prayed le3sha and then went to sleep

I woke up the next day washed my face did everything and went to have breakfast alone cause my family went to grandma's w 6ab3an magaloule :)


i got a whatsapp from hamad:

hamad; 7ube

me; halla 7yate

hamad; shlounich walaht 3laaich

me; yal3yaar ams shayefni ;p I'm good

hamad: lool ya kalba latfashlene doom enshallah 3umre

me: matdoum ayame ela weyak 7yate :*

hamad: allah layfaregna enshalla

me; AMEEIN :$

hamad: baby shoofay hal pic shrayech feni ;)?


me; cuuuutttteeeeee!!!!!! Tshaweg hamad

hamad; tislmeen 7ube ;*

me: wedi arkab jet ski wla mara b7yate jarabt :(

hamad: afa 3laich terkbein wyaay enshalla!!

me: shlouun ;$??

hamad: terkben jedame wana wraach wsoug feech *.*

me: law 6i7t :o

hamad; age6 rou7e wanqethech

me: ya enta ya sharoukhaan LOOOOL

hamad: memeo ya3ne hatha yzaay bswi rou7e romeo, bas z3alt

me: nooo please hamoudii kent ga3da atghashmar wallah


No reply !
men 9ija za3al? umbaih dalou3 ge6aaaa3333!!




me: kaifek latkalmne khalik za3laan 3ley 6oul 7yatek :'(


Suddenly !...




...: alo

me: alo?

hamad: agdar az3al 3la rou7e w7yate?

me: madre

hamad; la magdar wentay tadreen shkether amout feeich ! wal7ein balla weya wayhech ana elmfrouth elz3lan mu entay

me: lol hehe y3ne ana bent ou y3ne i'm sensitive tara :$

hamad: obouuuy elsensitive <3

me: a7immm :$

hamad; shga3da tswen babe?

me: nothing ga3da brou7e

hamad; wain ahalech?

me; grandma's

hamad: ukhh mkhaleeinich brou7ech :o?

me; eeeh bas latkhaf 3ley ana fa7al B-)

hamad: digeega ana akalim bent wila 9baay!

me: hamadiiiii !!!!!

hamad: atghashmar atghashmar yuba!;p waaaakkk

 me: not funny jad

hamad: enzain

me: hamad

hamad: halla ya rouu7 7amad amray? tedalelay!

me: promise you will never ever leave me!

hamad: shel6are?

me: hamad promise !!

hamad: i promise

me: goul wallah!!

hamad: wallah

me: ou ena you will marry me lama nikbar!

hamad; i promise you i will never you ou i will marry you, wallah!

me: benshuuuf ;p

hamad: awya 7anshouf

me: okay hamoude akalmek b3den sarow ga3da etdig -,-

hamad: masheba3t menech

me: shswe feha

hamad: khala9 baby akalmech b3den whatsapp take care ;*

me: okay 7yate :*

hamad; a7bich!!

me: ana amout feek :$ yalla bye

hamad: bye 7ube :*

The past and the future. Chapter 5

I woke up the next day 3la 9raakh el khadam and i found sara and dana sleeping so i woke them up then went to the toilet then we had breakfast together and then we got ready 3shan ilzwara ib bait sara and dana ..



me: danoo abi albs shay minich

dana: fchay elkabat ekhtaray

me: hmm abi this ou 7jabech el paige

dana: kay


sara: uuuuuuuggghhhh madre shalbes!!!!!

me: ambaaih lebsich 7iloooowww!!

sara: *crying* waaiii3333

me; wallah tshawgeen sara bas 76ay 7jab rumade a7la!

sara: *sniff* okay *snif*

dana; 7mdela welshker maynouna

sara: 9kay bouzech a7sanlech



me: tara ana khala9t banzil batghada 7adee you3ana ou basalem ba3ad

sara: entaay bas bal3aa matshb3een!!

me: kaifi kaaiifiii

sara: n6rene pleaaasse

me: bser3aaaa



15 minutes passed..

sara: yalla

me: finally


We went downstairs ou salamt 3la yadat sara and dana and the women ou my cousins ou a few of the family friends, had lunch then shahoud called me and said to come out

me: yalla sara emshay shahoud bara

sara: okay



me: halla bel7uuubbb

shahad: halla belghala shlounich

me: tmaam u?

shahad: al7mdla, shlounech sara?

sara; bkhair x

shahad: ha wain taboun???

me: abi avenues mishtahya elevation burger ou cinema 6ab3an

sara: la ana abi fridays!!!!

me: walaaain entay kila fridays matmleen!!

sara: bas chubb

shahad: lol khala9 nrou7 avenues w9eer khair


So shahad turned on the music, started the engine and we were off to the avenues


me: 7abeebi 7amad

hamad: halla 7yate ;*

me: tara barouu7 avenues okay?

hamad: wya mnu?

me: my friend shahad ou saroun

hamad: enzain baby take care ou etha a7ad sawa feich shay goulele okay??

me: enshalla

hamad: ana barouu7 dwaneyat 9a7bey b3den ayech avenues ashufech men b3ed okay 7ube

me; sure take care 7yate x

hamad: enshallah om 3abdullah :*

me: hehe :$


shahad: shfeech mndmja belphone 36ena wayh 3ad

me: eeh la wla shay zain lol



You know i didn't tell shahad, not because i don't trust her but cause i'm afraid ena a6eei7 men 3ainha ou that she won't be my friend anymore...
I'm planning to tell her but i don't know when


sara; finally we9alna za7ma ge6a33

me: huff 7ada


We got in watched a movie and then belyala rethat sara ena nrou7 elevation burger
and while we were sitting belma63am my phone started ringing and it was hamad! OMG i never talked to him phone!!


shahad: shfeech matrden mnuu??

me: uhmm rfejtii!!

shahad: redayy!!!

me; eeh okay

hamad: aloo halla babe winch??

me: halla shayoukh ana tmaam

hamad: aha a nseeit entay wya rfejtich theeik enzain 7bebti ana eb avenues winch?

me: ohh 7tan ana bel avenues, eeh eb elevation burger

hamad: bayeech zain?

me: eeh 7yaach

hamad: ou tara bag3ad bel6awla ele jbalech 3shan akhezich khaz ;)

me: loool maynouuuna

hamad: byeey bas wya 9a7bi tara

me; eeh okaay




shahad: mnu hathe?

me: rfejti from school

sara: ay wa7da?

me: sheikh el6weela ele ams sheft'ha b 360 thekrteha??

sara: ele ana wyach ou dana :O??

me: eeh

sara: btyeeey??? :O

me: yemkin madre cause galat her cousins mayabouun elevation burger



6ab3an ga3adt a2alef 7ache warage3 3shan shahad mat7is b shay.

Ba3ad only 5 minutes 7amad walked in elevation burger with his friend ou hamad kept on staring and his friend kept on staring on sara!!
Luckily shahad had her back to them but me and sara kina mjableenhum


me: 7amouud latkhezni mu 3arfa akheth ra7te and plus manabe elnas eyshekoun!!!

hamad: entay shnu??

me: shnu ana shnu??

hamad: ya bent elnas every time i see you t9eren prettier than the last time

me: hehe tislam :$


6ab3an ana bain kil fatra wilthanya akhez hamad shway ba3dain ast7i wanazel rasy aswi rou7e ashuf my phone lol..

sara: yalla khal nedfa3 wnrou7 9ar za7ma

me: eeh khanedfa3 yalla

shahad: okay


We payed and then went to the car.

shahad: haa taboun agazezkum bel7ub ;p?

me&sara: eeeehh pleaaasseee

shahad: lol kint joking

me: law please khanrou7 shway bas nghayer jaw b3den nred elbait

shahad: entay ray7a avenues shtswen 3yaal

me; el7ub ghaair

shahad: zain okay

me&sara: wohoooo


We arrived bel7ub ou 6ab3an lazm nesma3 mu7athara qusayara men elsit shahad


shahad: rouuskoum seida haa mu tlafetouun

me: eeh eeh okaay


6ab3an sarouu mkayfa tkhez 3la ra7t'ha ou shahoud mara7 tchekha LOOOL


Me and shahad ga6aina sara her home then shahad ga6atne mine cause i had a tutor tomorrow
As soon as i entered i called sara

sara: ambaaaih meme

me: ha

sara: laish wa3adtay hamad elyoouum

me: walla mawa3dta bas ohwa gal byee

sara: ou laish masdeteh eb wayha lama dag

me: madre kent khayfa ou shahad galt redayy ou kheft ma2red b3den tshek eb shay wla shyaat

sara; eeh okay umbaaih wnasaaa bel7uub shftaay elger3aan ele kanaw ykhzouunaaa??

me: eeh waaayy CUUTTTTEEE

sara: abi atzawaj Sa3aaaaaddddddd :"(

me: yarabeeey enseeeeh enseeh el9bay mayadre 3an hawa darech!!

sara: meme ana soulaft wyaah ou gale cham 3mrech ou getla 13 chan ygoule allah ywafgich wmay shnuu!! Law magtla 3umre el9ije chan kamal swalef tara ag9aha 4 sneeen farg y3ne ohwa bas 17 WAAAAAAHHHH

me: laylaha ela allah!! khala9 entay mu ri7tay makka ou d3etay sa3ad yitzawejich! etha fe ne9eeb fa rabe bekhale sa3ad yshufech wyin3jeb fech wkha6bech bas 3ad entay 9eray 18 wkhal9ay school 3alaqal!!

sara; uhhhm okay :(


Let me tell you who sa3ad is:..  basically he added sara on instgram and she fell in love with him and then one day he talked to her on insta message and she really really loved him so she told him about her love for him and that she's sorry if she bothered him and that she will never ever talk to him again. And all he replied with was " allah ywafgich "

His description: agra3, TANNED, medium height, his eyes are sooo beautiful and he has a perfect smile ou ohwa 3askary



Kil ma bghait at7arash eb saroow agoulaha ena sa3ad 7agey wteg3ad t6gney LOOL she adores him so much maskeena whwa maydre 3nha


Back to the phone call



me: sarow gabel maseda

sara: shnu

me: agouul 7ag shahad ?

sara: madre kaifech yalla banam byee

me: malat 3laich bye.


Call ended




shahad: had fun today meme :*

me: i did too thankyouu 3aal6al3a so much

shahad: 7abebe no need

me: shahad bagoulich shay bas promise me you won't get mad and that you won't judge?

shahad: khara3tene shfeech!!!

me: i have a boyfriend.

The past and the future. Chapter 4

School finished and i headed to mac to buy lunch and when i finished ordering i turned around to find hamad standing right behind me! He saw me and smiled 7tan 7sait kan yabe ykalmne but there was people so nzalt rase and i smiled then i bit my lips from shines.
Madre laish est7aait 7aail cause its the first time i've ever seen hamad bil9ij ou it wasn't planned x$.

Anyways...

I took my order and headed back home and when i opened my whatsapp i found a message from hamad.


hamad: 3ash minshafich 3umree ;***

me: 7bebe 3ashat ayamik :$

hamad: a7la 9idfa wrabe <3

me: hehe :$




The rest of the week nothing important happened and today is thursday finally after waiting for ages!!


me: sarouuuuunnnnn

sara: haaa way3a ya zag shtabeen

me: abi agoulich shay tharouure yalla mrene khanrouu7 360

sara: ga3da albes akhale9 wyeech ana ou dana

me: zainnn


Let me describe sara: Quite tall, mtbtba shway, beitha, but she's pretty and she's 13 years old kubre ya3ne bas ana akbar menha eb 5 days :$
She's my cousin and my bff at the same time, she's the sister i never had<3



And Dana is sara's sis, she's 17 a senior and she's really thin, she has same skin colour as saroun and she has a pretty smile and a pretty face too.
I'm quite close to dana too.



BEEEBBPP
BEEEEEPP




sara: fuck u ya zag e7na bara

me: okay kane nazla latsben ya wa9kha

sara: chubb

me: u chub kanee



Lebast 7jabe bser3a ou khathait flous men ome told her bye and went down.


me: halla bel cousins eljameleein

dana; halla walla

sara: fuck u laish t2akhereen

me: laish tsbeen??

dana: huff ge6a3 lsanha wa9ekhh

sara: nafsich yal ...

me: khlaa9 eklaw kharakoum

dana: yalla kumar rou7 360

me: mama gouuul??

sara: EHH MAMA GOUUUL


me: enzain sm3aw tara 3endi bf esma hamad and i told them the story from A to Z

sara: cuuttee

dana: 7aail bas meme entay tawich 13 y3ne 9ghera 3ala halswalef

sara: 3daal entay a9lan entay lama kntay kuberna kan 3endich bf ou kach lail7enich wyaah ashuf bas entay 3ade haa

dana: ana ghair la2ana ana abdullah byetzwajne !!

me and sara; EEH KHAIR ENSHALLA KAAAAAK

dana: klaaab

me: tara hamad sounds serious y3ne he promised he would NEVER leave me ou he would marry me :$

dana: inshalla maye6la3 chathab

me: ou 3la fekra byee 360 yabe yshufne bas ana gtla men b3eed lay b3eed a7san

dana: eeh 7ail




We arrived and booked cinema tickets to GI-JOE and when the movie was over we sat on the tables near fridays and hamad whatsapped me telling me that he is gonna come now y3ne bemer chena 3ade bas bkhzne :$


hamad: ha baby ana kane yam Dslush byee 3end el6awlat abeich tkounen ga3da jdame mu ma36eytne thahrech

me: okay



me: umbaaih a7is khayfaa!!!

sara: laishh

dana: 7da laish khu entay mentay ga3da wyaah bas bt6al3oun ba3ath men b3eed

me: umbaaih kahuu!!!!


I quickly looked at him but then nazalt rasey bser3a cause 7sait ina est7aait 7aail!!! wmarefa3t rase ela lama i saw hamad going away.



me: umbeeh fashla laish nzalt rasee

dana: 7daaa

sara: ur boyfriend jaiikaar sim7ele

dana: eeh i agree

me; chub bas ou 3daal entay 7beebich eljameel ya dana


We went and ate in fridays then we finished and went to alnuzha co-op and then to sara and dana's house cause i was sleeping over!!


me: banat ana mwa3da shahoud bacher ba6la3 wyaha shlouun ra7at 3an baley :(

sara: ba6la3 wyakouuumm please

me: zzaain agoulaha




me: shahouudd

shahad: halla babe?

me: bacher saroou tabe t6la3 wyana 3ade

shahad: eeh 3ade babe i never say no :*



Let me describe shahad: she's 19, short 7ail, chubby with chubby cheeks bas 7ail mamlou7a ou beitha and mit7ajba.
I became her friend from twitter even though my parents knew her parents from a long time bas we recently became friends and even though shahad akbar mene bwayedd ela ena she always tells me tafkeery tafkeer w7da  3ouda :$ Shahad is very wise i love her 7ail she's like the big sister i never had


sara: ha shgalat??

me: galat okay

dana: ouushh  3abouud bedig

me: tkfaain basmaa33

dana: t3alay yame

sara: fuck u thnainatkoum ana barou7 anam bacher bg3douna mbacher 7g elzwara

me: LSANICH!! ka shway ou yaya yal3eshg ;)




So abdullah is dana's bf from 4 years i think and yeah i heard their phone call then was going to sleep when hamad whatsapped me


hamad: 7yate you looked hot today!!!!

me: hehe thankyouu :$

hamad: nzain 7yate brou7 eldwanya akalmich b3dain

me: i'm gonna sleep anyways night :*

hamad: a7bichhhh

me: wana ba3ad x

The past and the future. Chapter 3

I woke up and headed to the toilet to do my things, prayed and then checked my phone to find a lot of bbm messages, mentions and MSN notifications ugh.



Hamad: hey maryam shlounich 3sa fakartay??

maryam: tmaam, eeh fakart


NO mafakartay maryam why did you lie and say that you stupid cow !! now what am i gonna say puff


hamad: so do you wanna be my girl?

me: uhmm yeah..



NO NO NO NO why did i say that now ? I just got myself into something i can't get out of yarabe now i'm gonna be his gf and this is so bad, so so bad..



hamad: mane m9adeg!!! entay 7agey al7een fahma wila la?

me: okay okay calm down hamad i'm yours lat7atee lol ;p

hamad: call me hamouudy, hamada bas 3ad dl3ene 3ad :$

me: enshalla hamoudy :$

hamad: yakhe ylomoune laish a7bich

me: ast7ii :$

hamad: fdaait ele yist7ouun ;**

me: fdak elkoun :$






So yeah i am hamad's girlfriend now, i'm 13 as i've mentioned before and yes i know i'm too young for this bullshit but sometimes i think that i kinda had to do this! Don't judge a book by its cover like if you don't know me then just read this and maybe you'll understand why i decided to be hamad's gf.

You see, i never got the enough love and attention from my parents and so hamad kind of made me feel what it would be to have someone who cares about you and loves you.

You will just fully understand if you were in my shoes..




hamad: 7beebti meme

me: 3younha

hamad: 7yate khansoulef whatsapp a7san

me: okay my number 99******

hamad: mine is 60******

hamad: halla b7yate tawa ma nawar elwhatsapp

me: bwjoudek 7yate :$

hamad:  7yate 3ade etdzele your pic?

me: hah??? hmm no mabe akhaf matms7ha

hamad: afaa!!! shnu 7yate mu wathqa feeni??

me: emballa bas ya3ne i'm afraid

hamad: wallah bas dgeega bashufha b3den bams7hha

me: okay        *Picture sent*

hamad: shhal jamal??

me: madre :$, enzain 7amoudy emsa7 el9oura please

hamad: okay 7yate ms7t"ha

me: goul walla

hamad: wallah! enzain 7ube abi ashuf 9ourtech bdoun 7jab?

me: no hamad 3aaib shloun ana mit7ajba!!

hamad: shnu 3aib??? shfeech ana batzawijech ya3ne 3ade

me: lama tkha6bne b3deen shufne bdoun 7jab

hamad: yalla 3ad 7yate ana bas atkharaj men el madresa baakalim ahale 3anech ya3ne ana bs attkharj men eljam3a intay tkouneen makh6ouba ley

me: 9ijjj?? :$

hamad: eeh walllah 7ube

me: khala9 bdezlik 9oura bas ems7ha 3ad zain

hamad: enshallah ya murte elmstqbleya w om 3yale  ;)

me: :$    *picture sent*

hamad: hathe entay??? la mani m9adig !

me: walla hathe ana :$

hamad: 9AROUUUKHH WRABE !!!

me: men thouqik!!:$

hamad: 7beebti entay *.*

me: yalla 7yate banam tmw school

hamad: la 3aad masheba3t menech

me: bteshba3 meney lat7ate ;p yalla goodnight

hamad: goodnight baby love you :*

me: me too :$






I slept that night feeling beyond great and i woke up the next day got dressed up prayed and did everything and went to school with a wide smile on my face


noura: OHHBB OHHBB sh3endich shaga elebtisama men 9ba7 allah khair

me: wla shay bas tethakart shay ytha7ek ;p

noura: 3alaina 3alaina

me: chub


Let me describe noura: Long dark brown hair with light brown eyes and a tanned skin, quite tall with a pretty cute baby face and she's 13.


noura: ya zag goulay el9ij!!

me: i have a bf !!

noura: omg 7ilfay?

me: wallah

noura: mane m9adga maryouum

me: shocking 9a7!?

noura: umbaih laykoun its the hamad guy ele men ask ou twitter

me: eeh ohwa

noura: umbaaih meme mahagait you would ever have a bf in your life inlay 7adich mu chethi!!!

me: nourow entay tadreen how my dad treats me at home!! ma7isah y7ibne ya3ne he never cares bas yzif w la kil ma6ala3t wyaah ygoule shay ybachene ou 7asouun ukhuuy bas y6ig wyt7rash ma'ahema

noura: just because inlay meftaqda 7naan wla 7ub doesn't mean you should have a boyfriend

me: bas hamad be3aweth what is missing

noura: all i'm gonna say maryam is that itha hamad 9ij y7ibich then byeey ykha6bech

me: ou thats what he's gone do!!

noura: benshouf

me: noura you're mad?:(

noura: no I'm not you have your own life and you should make your own decisions ana mu lazm atdakhal w its okay i know who you are adre you won't do bad things with him

me: 6ab3an ya3ne shbasawe ;p

noura: etdzela 9warech

me: uhhmm yeah well about that..

noura: OMG meme maynouuuna??? laish dzetela 9warech!!!

me: ushh ftha7tene tara were in school!!!!

noura: walla shaklich entay btfthe7en 3umrech mu ana!! ya3ne shdrach ena mesa7 elpic

me: he captured the album and it was clear

noura: omg jad be careful meme thats all i'm gonna say

me: i will don't worry.

The past and the future. Chapter 2

I got a mention from @hamadalflane ...

it said " follow back please? "

i clicked on his profile and stopped to think whether to follow him or not! Hmm well he kinda seems nice so i followed him, and after only 2 minutes i got a dm from him..


@hamadalflane: hey

@memealflane (me): hey..

@hamadalflane: shlounich?

@memealflane: bkhair al7mdla, you?

@hamadalflane: douum enshallah, ana bkhair damich bkhair ;**

@memealflane: damat ayamik and thank you :*

@hamadalflane: nn ;**


We spent like an hour talking and i found out a lot about him and for sure he found out a lot about me too :p


@hamadalflane: enzain meme ;p


Haw shaku ynadene meme 7asasne ena y3rfne men sneein 7mdela wlsheker :/


@memealflane: halla?

@hamadalflane: 3ade nsoulef whatsapp?

@memealflane: no !! sorry i can't hamad

@hamadalflane: laish!

@memealflane: bas 7da mu nou3en a36e raqme to a boy wsoulef wyah whatsapp

@hamadalflane: enzain ay mukan thane nsoulef feeh??

@memealflane: hmmm MSN?

@hamadalflane: oulllaaaahh shqedma el MSN akraha!! malegaitay ela MSN

@memealflane: wallah kaifek hamad matabe MSN nsoulef dm's bas

@hamadalflane: khala9 oki my email hamouuud34@hotmail.com

@memealflane: mine is pinkcupcake@hotmail.com

@hamadalflane: emailech 9arouuuuukkkhhhhhhh

@memealflane: lol i made it when i was 10!!:$ ou a9lan 3dal emailik enta

@hamadalflane: LOOL okay lat3a9ben 7ajiya lets get adding




So we added each other MSN and started chatting.

My habit everyday became talking to hamad and all i think about is him and i even dream about him gosh i really don't know whats wrong with me, but i don't know i always felt so amazing when i talked to him a7is he made me feel so special ou lama yes'al 3ane ou lama ygoule whether to do something or not to do...


I just feel that i'm attached to him now and hmm well i might have a crush on him?...


Days passed and all i ever do is talk to hamad and one day he said..


hamad: maryam

me: halla??

hamad: bagoulich shay bas don't get mad wila shay u have to wait till the end okay?

me: okay?

My heart started beating so fast and i felt so scared of what he's gonna say!

I'm sure you girls reading this will agree with me when ur in this situation :p



hamad: i love you! since the first time we started talking en3ijabt fetch w 7baitech wallah ine mu ga3ed age9 3laaich w meste3ed aswi ay shay 3shan t9dgene wallah

me: uhmbaih madre shagoul...

hamad: wallah 9dgene a7bich w ana shareich w abeich w meste3ed abe3 elkoun 3shanech

me: uhmm hamad madre itha ana a7is bnafs sh3ourek bas madre afaker waredlek khabar

hamad: okay..

me: goodnight

hamad: goodnight baby *.*




So i stayed in bed thinking whether to be hamad's gf or not!! bas ya3ne umbaih i"m a clean girl, i never talked to any guys in my life whatsoever and my parents are strict 7ail ou i really don't wanna loose their trust!! and this whole relationship would be totally 7aram!


But yet again hamad is so amazing and he just makes me feel so amazing ya3ne he cares so much.


ahhhh i really don't know!! I'll sleep now ou when i wakeup e9eer khair....

The past and the future. Chapter 1

Hey guys iam back with a new story!! And i hope you will like it



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...: entay? NAAARR

Me: ast7ii :$

....: maryouma 7beebti akalmech ba3dain obouy byakheth telephoney

Me: shnu hatha hamad!! Enta walad shkubrek sh6oulik obouk yakheth menek ur phone!!!

Hamad: ba3ad shasawy 7beebti! Enshalla ana mta magedart ra7 abouga wakalmech okay baby?

Me: okay!!





for those who hadn't worked it out yet, well hamad is maryams boyfriend.


Maryam (me) is 13, mit7ajba, medium height but not too tall, sunkissed with pretty eyes.

Hamad (maryam's bf ) is 15, 6weel, white skinned and wears glasses.










Let me tell you how this all started...

I was on my ask.fm when a new question popped up so i clicked on it and i think it said how old are you? With a name * hamad alflane *

So i answered the question saying " im 13 "

After 5 minutes this guy hamad started asking me lots and lots of questions and then i started asking him too.
But before i logged out of my ask i found a new question so i clicked on it and it said " whats ur twitter? " with the name *hamad alflane*

I answered it without hesitating " @memealflane "




I then logged out and clicked on my twitter and started tweeting and retweeting till i suddenly got a mention from............

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Hey guys i hoped you liked todays post i know its short bas im typing this from the ipad and its so 

annoying but yeah i would love to have feedback and thankyouu xx

Mistakes

Heey guys i am back!! and just wanna say that i missed you alot and i'm so for dissappearing well i thought i no more wanted to blog but i wanted to be back so yeaah!!



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For sure everyone of you guys had made mistakes, i mean we're all humans and every human makes a mistake.
It was one thing to make a mistake; it was another thing to keep making it and well, we all make mistakes, so just put it behind you. We should regret our mistakes and learn from them, but never carry them forward into the future with us.

Uhhm and well sometimes we fall into doing bad things but then something happens to teach us a lesson about what we did. Whoever is reading this might agree with me cause anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new.

When you find your path, you must not be afraid. You need to have the enough courage to make mistakes. I mean disappointment, defeat, and despair are the tools God uses to show us the way whenever we are going the wrong way.

Oh and one more thing! It is important that we forgive ourselves for making mistakes. We need to learn from our errors and move on and just because we make mistakes doesnt mean were evil, bad or whatever...

Sometimes.. (short poem)

Heey guyss!! I havent wrote a post in ages so i decided to write a short poem to entertain the bored ones :p


There you go ..
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Sometimes i feel like i hate my life,

Sometimes i feel that i'm usless,

Sometimes i feel that i need to rest from everything,

Sometimes i feel like i need someone to be there for me,

Sometimes i feel like crying my heart out,

Sometimes i feel like i'm lonely and sometimes i feel like hugging any random person and telling them everything i'm hiding,

Sometimes i feel like i make too much mistakes,

Sometimes i feel like closing my eyes and rising,
Rising up to where the blue skies and clouds are,

But i know that i was made to be in this life to try the rough and tough things cause life is just a short exam that were doing and sooner or later it'll end.

Me ... ( short post )

hey guys, how are you? i hope you're doing well! I miss writing so much so i decided to write a short random post, and yeah i'm doing that instead of doing my homework's but i prefer writing a post so yeah hehe !xx



Enjoy

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Well where can i start?

I'm just an ordinary teenage girl who's trying to live her life,
I may not be perfect, but i'm always me! and plus nobody's perfect right?
I make mistakes! But who doesn't?
I can be jealous at sometimes but its only because if something is meant to be mine, then it has to be mine,
i'm not a kind of stubborn person, i'm actually quite peaceful,
i hate arguing and i hate fights,
i'm bubbly and i laugh whenever i get the chance to, 
i try to smile as much as i can, cause this life's to short to be sad and frown about anything,
i may not be the prettiest but i believe that everyone is beautiful in their own way.
I know for sure that i'm not the best but i'm definite that i'm not like the rest.

A short story - The mistaken love

Hey guys !! How are youuu?? I hope you're great! I actually miss you so much and i miss typing too and well i feel quite bored so i decided to write a short story for you to enjoy reading hehe xx

And Eidkum mubarak!!!!! I know its a bit early but yeah ;p x

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Where am i?

I said that while opening my eyes and hearing my voice echoe through the dark and gloomy garage i was in,
i couldn't see very well..
my hands were tied together and they were attached to the chair, 
it's obvious i can't move!


But who did this to me? How did it happen? When and why?
Is this just a dream?

I was just sat there tied to the chair all on my own in this dark place, I was freezing and i had nothing to make me feel warm,

tears started streaming down my face and i started crying. Silently.
Too afraid for anyone to hear me.

Am i gonna die? I mean i never did anything mean to anyone i shouldn't die this way..

I started crying till i heard a squeaky door bang open..











"You're awake?" he said.

Who are youu?? and why am i here ?? I replied whilst i was trying to move back

 " you don't have to know who i am, and you're here because you're good prey :* " he said that while taking one step near me.

I started shivering, he came closer and closer..

He bent down and whispered " you'll be safe with me babe. " 

I got goose bums and i started sweating un believably, i was terrified.

This is too much, so i started crying till he put his finger on my lips and said " shhhhhh, don't cry baby its all going to be alright", He wiped my tears away and walked out of the room.
Leaving me alone in this disgusting place.






I prayed and prayed to God so i can get out of this place and without noticing.. i slept.



I woke up the next day finding a tiny bit of sun shine through a little broken window, but the place is still dark even though its the morning.

I need the toilet desperately what should i do? UGH

Suddenly the same guy from yesterday came in...

" you're awake?" he said repeating what he said yesterday,

I replied with - yes i am, i need the toilet please, is there a toilet here?

" yes there is a small toilet in the end of the room, let me untie you " he said while uniting my hands from the chair

Thankyou - i said, while touching the bruises on my hands.

He led me to the toilet and as soon as i entered i felt sick!!! 

It was so horrible and dirty! The smell was disgusting and the toilet seat was covered in dirt!

It's too dirty - i said while making a disgusted and scared face

" it's the only toilet we have for the prisoners here, sorry  " he said while laughing 

It's not funny ok! I need the pee while this toilet is disgusting and i'm talking to stranger which happens to be you, and i'm in this horrible scary place and i don't even know why !!!!- i said that whilst wiping my tears.

" you're really cute when you're mad, you know that?" He said that while smiling at me.

uhhmm well thank you! I don't even know you but you're not bas yourself ;p - i said that with a confused expression on my sleepy face


" you're welcome, my name is jack by the way " He said 

nice name - i said

" and i know that your name is emily" he said

I was surprised, and not only that but i was gobsmacked!!!

How do you know my name?- i said while taking a step backwards..

" I know every little detail about you " - he said with a confident smile and a wink 

Are you gonna kill me?- i said

" no, not quite. " - he said with a sad expression

Can you tell me the truth please !- i said 

" you're not going to die trust me " - he said while holding my hand..

DONT TOUCH ME - i shouted while running away from him, but he was too fast and he catched me..

" i won't hurt you i never will, i promise"- he said while being so close to me

How can i believe you?? I mean you're just a stranger who kidnapped me - i said

" i never kidnapped you, it was my friend, i'm the one who's encharged of you " - he said while letting go of me

is he here?? is he gonna hurt me? - i said with a worried expression

" no " he said

but .. - i said

" but i'm here to protect you from him don't worry, i told you you'll be safe " he said while making me sit down on the chair 

thank you - i said



Days passed by so slow! And jack would come in to check on me all the time, He's so sweet, i mean i don't get why he helps the kidnappers, i feel like he's too good to do these type of evil stuff!

So far he's the only one i trust, My relationship with him had grew so much bigger and were very close now,, he told me his secrets surprisingly ! And i actually told him one of mine!

I trust him so much i feel that he understands me a lot, he told me how much he missed his family cause its been 5 years since he saw them and he'll never see them again because of this job he does.


Why do you do this job? - i asked, being curious

" it's the only thing that can offer me a shelter and good money" he said sadly

But its not nice kidnapping girls is it?- i said

" no its not, it never will be, maybe to my boss and his mates but not to me it isn't"  he said scratching his head


We stayed silent for a while, then he broke that silence after a while by saying

" have you ever fallen in love?"


Never, what about you? - i replied


" i've never fallen in love too, i don't even know if love exists " he said.

You wouldn't be born if love didn't exist ;p i said while giggling

He giggled too and said " yeah ok i guess love does exist then.. "



He excused himself that day and left me, feeling actually happy> I slept that day feeling like a part of me has been put back again.

It turned out jack isn't a bad person at the end ;p!


2 days passed and jack hasn't came to check on me.. 

I got worried and scared wondering what the hell happened to him.

Till Oneday....







































he came in with his hind behind his back!

I got terrified, like what the hell is he hiding !!

" close your eyes" he said

I closed them and then he told me to open them!

And there he was holing a little cute flower!

OMG thats so cute where did you get that from???- i said

" from the garden near the garage " he said with a cute smile

I blushed, i don't know why but it was so cute. 


" i love you " he said..

what? - i said being confused

" i love you.. " he repeated

I actually had a crush on him the whole time, i mean he looked so fit and cute and i found out the real him which is adorable so i guess i love him too..

uhmm me too - i said while blushing 

" i know its weird cause I'm a stranger but i couldn't hold it anymoe! You just brought be back to life!! I mean i feel like what i do is heartless and what you did is that you brought me alive again!!! " he said with a massive smile though he had some tears in his eyes

I'm glad i did :*


Days passed and i'm still in this garage place, jack would come in all the time, he know brings me snacks and drinks and he even brings games for us to play!! You may think it's weird but i'm actually having fun though i'm defiantly not having fun with the stinky toilet :).



One day i was alone in the garage room waiting for jack when the door opened, i knew it was jack so i started running to hug him. But it wasn't jack.. It was a muscly big guy with a scary big face.

He pushed me to the floor and started kicking me,

I was in pain!! I need jack where is he!!!!!!

Then he clapped with his hands and two big guys came and picked me up and started dragging me out of the room!

At first i was happy cause i thought i'm going to get out of here but then i realised i won't because the place got darker and darker each time we got closer.

They got me in this tiny room and hung me on this metal thing to the wall.


My hands were separate very wide and so were my legs..


Where's jack? - i said

" i'm here " he said while coming out from a hiding place 

What are they gonna too to me??? I'm in pain already jack! - i said while crying

" Forgive me " he said standing there with teary eyes

whyy? - said

" just forgive me for what's going to happen now please" - he said

And without realising, i started getting whipped and beaten up by the big guys, every time the whip touched my skin, i felt it burn, i saw the blood coming out.

I saw jack's broken looks, he looked so sorry.
I was in too much pain and i couldn't feel anything, anymore i knew its not jack's fault whats happening to me i'm sure, he promised me he'd never hurt be before and he never will brake his promise..

I was getting beaten up so hard that all i knew, was that i said I love you to jack,

and that quickly my eyes closed down, without a warning, just like that.

I got beaten up so hard that my body couldn't hold all this pain.

" she's not dead is she ?" jack said with a worried face

" thats one prey down, we need to hunt for another" The big guy said

" YOU FLIPPING IDIOT, YOU KILLED THE ONLY PERSON I EVER LOVED YOU FREAKING A**HOLE !!!!!!! " 

" You knew she was gonna end this way so stop being a drama king and get ready to kidnap another girl "

I guess that emily didn't deserve to die this way but she defiantly spent her last days with the most special person she ever cared for, her mistaken love Jack.

I can't believe she's dead, It turned out that i showed her what love is in a mistaken way, she'll never forgive me, i didn't get to tell her goodbye, she just died! And i couldn't control it, I'll miss you emily RIP baby I love you forever  - he said wiping his tears away

 THE END

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@whenyourgonexox

http://ask.fm/whenyourgone

When you're gone CHAPTER 50! FINALE

The whole ride to the hotel, both me and fahad were silent and i was wondering if anything was going on his mind, but i was too shy to ask him! I was too shy to do anything, i just feel like i've never known fahad huh i just have mixed emotions right now !!

We arrived at the hotel and went to our suite! Gosh it was so amazing<3


fahad: jazi?

me: hmm?

fahad:mistansa?

me: umm eeh..

fahad: shnu sh3ourech?

me: madre mistansa 3ala khayfa 3ala mitwatra ..

fahad: shdaw3a kil hatha wana fahad??

me: eh ..

fahad: tara its ok mani maklich! I'm a human not a monster

me: I knooow !! bas I'm just nervous cause ya3ne madre i can't explain it

fahad: i love you

me: i love you too

fahad: ta3alay

me: menii??

fahad: eeh

me: ok


I came closer to him and he was just staring at me! Yup just staring.


me: shfeek?

fahad: mntay mbadla?

me: emballah al7ein barou7 abadel bel7mam

fahad: shnu bel7mam, badly meni

me: ay shay fahad:)?

fahad: i'm your husband! 3adeeyyy

me: no :)


I went to look at my pyjamas and guess what i found? A bunch of UNSUITABLE pyjamas or shall i say underwear :)
When my mom said she'll buy me nice pyjamas i though yeah she'll buy me nice pyjamas ! But i didn't know she'll buy me pyjamas that look so open EWWW
Huuf wee3 i don't wanna wear this type of "pyjamas" in front of fahad fashla :) baas shswe i have nothing else to do! 

Oh god ;/ i changed to the unsuitable "pyjamas" then i luckily found a robe to cover myself with yaay ;p


fahad: laish labsa robe?

me: uhhm.. bardana!

fahad: its summer -.-

me: uhmm el AC bared!!

fahad: ok akhaleeh less colder

me: NOO!!!

fahad: laish?

me: madre :(

fahad: shfech?

me: wla shay

fahad: 3ayal f9khay elrobe

me: mabe ;(

fahad: shlabsa??

me: malabs...

fahad: madamich labs malabs then fi9khay elrobe

me: NOO :(

fahad: haw!!



I quickly ran to the bed, took off the robe and hid under the blanket so fahad doesn't see the unsuitable "pyjamas"


fahad: ohh f9khtay elrobe :o?

me: yes but you can't see me I'm under the blanket!!!


Fahad quickly under the blanket and there i was mitrab3a with the blanket over me, in the unsuitable "pyjamas"



fahad: so thats why you were hiding *wink* ;)

me: close your eyes :O

fahad: jazi calm down I'm your husband ok! Tara 3ade just chill

me: but :( -

fahad: oushhhhhhh :*




He leaned over and kissed me gently with his soft lips, I did the same and decided to not ruin the moment!

I had my eyes closed the whole time till fahad backed off and thats when i opened them again.
It was a weird feeling!

I just felt like i was floating up the whole time!


fahad: a7ebich

me extremely shyly: ana ba3ad :$




I slept that night feeling SO INLOVE and i woke up the next morning and had breakfast with fahad at the buffet . 



fahad: jazi

me: 3younha :*

fahad: tislamle hal 3youun :*, 7abeebti tabein 3ers?

me: eeh 3ade??

fahad: itha tabeein nsweeh next week

me: eeh please! It's my dream to have a wedding like every other girl

fahad: wallah yhimich ! elwedding next week enshallah

me: thankyoou fahad :( <3

fahad: 7beebti you're more than welcome



I went shopping with my friends and i brought my wedding dress! It was soo soo beautiful and i brought my shabka and shoes and bla bla you know everything a girl needs to buy for her wedding!

One day me, fahad and yasmeen were in 360 having lunch when...
Yousef called fahad saying that munera is giving birth!



fahad: munera ga3da toulad

me: OMGGG YALLA EMSH KHAL ENROUU7 ELHOSPITAL

yasmeen: WAAYY YALLA KHAL NROUU7 WANAAASAAA


We quickly got in fahad's car and he started driving really fast so we can reach the hospital in time !

After a while we arrived and we started running to the pregnancy area w re7na 9oub ghurfat el3amaliyat wila nlage yousef waiting outside!


fahad: ha wainhe?

yousef: dakhel 9arlaha ni9 sa3a


Mawa3eina ila the doctor came out 


yousef: ha doctor basher?

doctor: mabrouk

yousef: allah ybarek feeik doctor khoush bshara *tears*


Both me and yasmeen started screaming!! 
Umbaaih wanasa our friend is now a mother!! She now has her baby son which just started his life! A new beggining!
She's going to go through a lot but its going to be worth it 3shan trabi elbaby!
Im so so so happy for her!


fahad: shbitsamouna?

yousef: elesem ele tabeh munera


Fahad waited outside with yousef while me and yasmeen went in and saw munera laying in bed with the baby in her hands! OMG it looked adorable !!!!!!!!


me: mabrouuuuuuuuuukkkkk mayach manouuuurrra 7ade mistansaa waaaayyyyyy

munera: allah ybarek feich

yasmeen: mabrouk mabrouk mabrouuk i love you manouurr ! al7mdla 3alsalama

munera: allah ybarek feich 7beebti i love you too! allah ysalmech!!


Munera and yousef decided to name their baby boy Hamad!

After a week Unfortunately fahad's grandma passed away so our wedding was cancelled and fahad was so broken !
He was so close to his grandma he loved her so much! Everyday he would cry whenever he remembers her!
But he was always strong in front of his parents and sister yasmeen, i mean he had to be! So that they can be strong too.



3 weeks later It's my wedding day !

I went to the salon with munera and yasmeen! We had everything done then we headed to the hotel so we can get dressed there, because i had a room booked in for me + thats were my wedding was going to be.

I got changed to my wedding dress 

munera: simple yet cute! thats you're motto baby, looking amazing btw

me: thankyoooouuu

yasmeen: 7adich zouqa!! go and shine today! Its you're night, your wedding ;p

me: will do! thanksssss nafsch :*

yasmeen: no need

me: 7ade khayfa!!!

yasmeen: it will be ok!



Later we went down to el9ala ele my wedding was going to be in and omg it was amazing and it was just filled with people!
I only knew quarter of the people lol.

Thats how it looked like

Doesn't it look amazing?:')

I walked to my kousha and all eyes were on me! 
I finally reached my kousha and everyone came and took pictures and said mabrouk etc!
After a while fahad came in with my dad and the men related to us then we cut our cake and had the dinner! It was great!

I had my wedding and it was beyond amazing! Thats one dream came true..


That night me and fahad went to the hotel, i got changed and sat on bed waiting for fahad to come out from the toilet so we can chat ;p..
After a while fahad came out


fahad: ha baby shlounech?

me: great! estanast bbel3ers?;p

fahad: eeh, 3sa estanastay entay?

me: yup bas sometimes 7seit it was boring -.- ! It was amazing though !!!

fahad: good!! (he said that and kissed my forehead straight away)

me: aha ;p

fahad: 7beebti

me: halla?

fahad: close your eyes

me: ok

I closed my eyes


fahad: open them

me: what are these?

fahad: their tickets to maldives for tomorrow! Its going to be just me and you ;*

me: OMMGGG THANKYOOOOOUUU FAHAD


I hugged him straight away ! Omg i can't believe that I'm going to go the maldives for my honeymoon ! It's unbelievable waayy i'm so happy!!!
I swear thats the best thing i've ever heard aahhh



me: fahad shloun bnsafer bachr wana mazahbt jan6ete??

fahad: i told your mom and she said she'll brig you your suitcase tomorrow at the airport

me: oh okay!


I slept and woke up the next morning on the stupid alarm !
Great now i have to wakeup fahad :)




me: fahad

fahad: hmmm

me: FAHAD

fahad: hmmmmmmmmmm


I jumped over him and started shaking him so he can wakeup when suddenly, he pushed me and so i fell on top of him :|
AWKWARD

fahad: good morning  sunshine

me: finally! good morning 7beebi!! Can you let go of me now please?

fahad: NO

me: I'm currently laying on top of you and its not comfy so please hedni

fahad: i will keep hold of you forever

me: we're going to miss our plane 7beebi!! Now common let go of me and get out of bed :*

fahad: huh mabe :(


I kissed him on his cheek and said,

me: thats you're good morning kiss now betgoum wila la >>

fahad: a7la bousa men a7la jazi, yalla gimt gimt!


Wooh he finally lt go of me! I'm free -.-


Fahad went to the toilet to do his stuff while i changed and applied my makeup and did my hair and after that fahad came out, then he got changed as well and we packed our stuff! And We're ready to go!
We headed to have breakfast from the buffet then we went to the hospital and my parents and fahad's parents were there!

mom: yumaa 7beebti jazi!! derebalch belsafra

me: enshallah mama

dad: bnayte abeich testansein belsafra

me: enshallah baba

fahad's mom: derebalch 3ala wlayde jazi maw9ech

me:matw9en 7are9 khalte


Me and fahad said our goodbyes to our parents and headed to our gate!

We got in the airplane and luckily my seat was next to the window and fahad was right next to me. The whole ride which was 7 hours was very boring -.-! 
Fahad slept the whole way ou 6ab3an his head was on my shoulders w kil mara at7arak y6l3 weird noise which is just weird.

After the 7 hours we landed safely and OMG I CANT BELEIVE IT IM IN THE MALDIVES!!!!


fahad: yalla khal ndawer taxi

me: ok


We got a taxi and the taxi took us to our resort and the place was just beautiful ! The scene of our resort was beyond amazing!!

me: allaaahhh!!!

fahad: yabouuy <3_<3 !! ELMANTHAR NAARR

me: 7addaa!!!



Me and fahad are spending our honey moon amazingly in the maldives! 
It's filled with laughs and romance, we are happy all the time, and hopefully we always will be, and I'm sure that this all will be amazing memories that we will have at the maldives because its for sue an unforgettable thing!

I'm enjoying my time here and another dream of my dreams came true.


Im glad i met fahad, he's now one of the important people in my life,
he's my love and my hero, he's basically my everything and I'm sure that without him my life would suck.





You see everything happened as a dream when i was little and now? Everything i dreamed came true! so thats why you should never stop dreaming, because what i believe is that all dreams come true, not straight away but someday they do.

And about true love?

It exists! You just need to wait for the right person to come in you're life and prove to you that they are you're true love, you might get stabbed and broken by a few but i will be worthy when you find the right one, and at the end you'll get a happy ending, cute and simple yet it can just be as happy as all the fairy tales stories.

                                                    THE END

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ATTENTION PLEASE:

 I hope you guys enjoyed my story as much as i enjoyed sharing it to you! I'm so happy because i would have not made it this far without your support you guys are amazing! 

I seriously wanna thank you (all my readers and the silent ones) for reading my story and i would thank all the people who commented and give me feedback and just helped me through the whole way!

I ADORE YOU SO MUCH ! AND IM SO HAPPY TO HAVE YOU AS MY READERS!

Please don't stop reading my blog as i will still continue blogging and i will be posting short stories and maybe if i can i will do another long story but i'll see how everything goes, but for now i'm gonna say bbye!!

For any things you wanna say then heres my twitter: @whenyourgonexox

and heres my ask http://ask.fm/whenyourgone


Oh and please don't stop reading my blog cause its not over :p


Thankyou again for your support i love you guys like ALOT !!

Much love to you my amazing readers !xoxoxo