i got a call from khaled which interrupted my thoughts
me: alo?
khaled: jazi can i meet you?
me: where? ou why?
khaled: meet me at the beach in 1 hour
me: okay I'm coming
and i ended the call
suddenly i got another call from mom saying that i have to come back home
me: manor get dressed mom wants me to come back home then I'm going to meet khaled at the beach madre shyabe
munera: ok
so i changed into my
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and my pink neon toms
then i put a few layers of mascara and a little bit of my bronze blusher with my lipgloss and i was ready to go
i reached the house 7a6ait aghrathe then nezalt ta7at bslm 3la ume
me: hey mom shlounech shakhbarech wlht 3leichx, ou yuma bn6la3
mom: halla yuma 7beebti ana akthar bs wain bt6l3ein labsatle hal libs?
me: bnru7 shwya 360 m7na m6wlein
mom: laish labsa hal shorts? wayd g9ar yalla f9kheihm
me: umbeehh yuma 3adee
me: please mom bs today
my mom is too strict for some reason :) i wish she could be free and open minded just like manoura's mom but i can't say much i had a kuwaiti mom not an australian mom :(
mom: laish rasch yabes
me: la2ane 6al3a 3alaich
mom: shgeltay?
me: slamtch! a7eebchh mwaahh xox
mom: bs hal mara :) wana akthar yalla m3alsalama
and we headed to the car
me: raja take us to the beach
raja: okay okay madam
we arrived and then
me: munera stay in the car ni6reni k
munera: kk
i got down the car and started walking on the beach, it was so windy and hot and i could feel the little sand grains managing to get through my shoe and settle between my toes, the weather was nice and the clouds were in neat rows just like in paintings
i walked and walked until i found khaled.
there he was sitting on the sand with his shoes off
me: a7mm
khaled: hey jazi
me: hey
khaled: how are you
me: I'm fine what about u?
khaled: I'm doing fine too
me: soo umm why did you call me and tell me to meet you here?
khaled: listen jazi i have to tell you something
me: okay???
khaled: my cousin nouf's dad just passed away you remember her right? and..
i cut him off by saying: omg allah yr7mah w 3atham allah ajrkm and yeah i met her in mac before with u she's a nice person
khaled: ajrna wajrch, well her dad died and she's just so weak right now! she needs me by her side latshufen 7alat'ha matakel wmatshrab she's very sick and she said she needs be with her
me: yeah hatha elwajb ur her cousin u have to be by her side !!
khaled: no i mean she needs be to be by her side as her bf !
me: WHATTTTT???!!!!!!
khaled: nouf had a crush on me since i was 6 and she always loved me, she always was nice to me and she always cared for me but i never gave her that much attention, but now i realised that what did before was wrong! i should've loved her from before and i need to be by her side now! thats when she needs me the most
me: ohh so umm your b..ra.k..ing up *sniff* wi..iithh .. m.e.eee..*snif*??
khaled: listen jazi i really love you i just can't leave nouf like that i have to be with her
me: ohh its ok gd luck with her *sniff*
khaled: I'm sorry i have to go
and he just left me there sitting on the sand alone crying my heart out.....
i seriously can't believe what khaled just told me, after this relationship he's just gonna leave me for his cousin who had a crush on him since ages !! wtf yeah her dad died bs mu yhedni wyru7 laha!! why does he have to fucking do this ?? life so damn unfair ! i hate khaled i really do. i should've never came back to him cause then i;ll be in peace but i had to come back to him and get my heart broken again! the biggest mistake i did is that i went back to him even though he broke my heart before and i thought he would never do it again but what to do when no one is trustworthy these days. he proved that he's a player and the worst thing is that i lost my trust in him and do you know what???
HE WAS NEVER WORTH IT !
but its ok I'm not gonna get mad anymore; I'm just going to expect the lowest from the people i thought the highest of.
I'm just gonna live my life without him
Maybe I'm just too fucking complicated for anyone to love :')
i was sat on the beach for ages all i did was cry non stop, i seriously didn't care who was around i just needed to cry. I really did,
i wiped my tears and just started gazing at the summer sky and i enjoyed the smell of the beach it always made me good
munera: jazii shfeechh???
me: he broke up with me :')
munera: omggg u've been crying :O don't tell me u've been crying over that dumbass?
me: don't worry I'm fine
munera: its clear now. he was never worth you
me: yeah can we go back home now?
munera: u have to tell me what happened okay?
i nodded with a weak smile
when we arrived home we avoided my mom so she wouldn't see my crying face and ask what happened and we went upstairs
munera: how do u feel
me: I'm alright
munera: so?
me: he left me for his cousin nouf who had a crush on him since he was 6 and her dad just passed away so he needs to be by her side
munera: 7dha chalba!!!
me: actually allah y3enha she has to cope with a player :p
munera: yeah ur right, don't worry tara theres millions of other boys ystahlounch wmayteen 3alaich
me: na I'm just gonna be single its better :P
munera: ur choice
she hugged me tight and i hugged her back but i burst into tears and all i knew was that i fell asleep
i woke up and it was 2AM i checked my bbm and saw that khaled deleted me, blocked me in whatsapp and unfollowed me in twitter, OMG he even unflollowed me in instgram
i just don't know how I'm gonna face him everyday in school.
i started crying again ! i codling hold it anymore I'm just too weak for this i just can't belieive it ! it just happened so fast i tried to control myself and just remembered what munera said: he was ever worth me
do you know what I'm gone do? I'm just gonna put a smile on my face and continue living my life, always remember ...
Evereyone wants happiness, no one wants pain. But you can't make a rainbow without a little rain.
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